well...i've be torn lately cuz i have to break it w/ carlos...the dilema is that we really like eachother & i feel we have feelings towards eachother...certain turn of events (really fucked up ones, drama drama drama) have occurred & basically force me to make the decision of leaving him...cuz i must...but it hurts cuz we connect & well, it hurts ( Read more... )

today i was in such a bad mood from the argument w/ carlos last night...dammit o'fuckin hell!!! i was pretty bummed out for most of the day at work but i called daisy & ramona & they would make me laugh sooooo hard....at some point b4 leaving work, i was on the phone w/ ramona & she made me laugh soooooo hard that my boss heard me from his office ( Read more... )

carlos & i had our 1st argument tonight...wow! that took long enough! lol...we're both strong characters but i feel i'm much smarter than he...he's the type of person that would want to convince me agree w/ him but in the same token not agree w/ me....well, we all know that's NOT going to happen...that'll be the day! but anyway...we argued for like ( Read more... )

man....i love this song from TOK called "when you cry"....it's so touching...whaeee gina ( Read more... )

hey! i bought the ballatore...yeyyy...but my quality time (gym, dinner, nookie) w/ carlos was postponed for tomorrow since he has to work late tonight... ;'( why gina???? whaaeeeee???? oh, well....he's gotz to makes the moneyz....i know how that is ( Read more... )

I have a dilema…carlos (my nyc hunny) & I have been spending a lot of time together…& well, he admitted to me that he is falling for me & I think I can fall for him too although it wasn’t in my agenda & I’m not ready for a serious relationship…carlos was suppose to be my nyc fling while I wait to meet w/ angel in texas (he’s the guy I would like to ( Read more... )

In loving memory of my one & only male soul-friend & maybe even soul-mate…

HAPPY BOIFDAY RONALD CASTILLO!!!!!

he would've been 31yrs old today, august 5th...one of my 2 most favorite LEO's (ramona!)...i will always celebrate this day...

I will always love you & will love you just as much in the afterlife…
My love for you will ALWAYS burn in my

hi all, well today i called tony, aka: "THE ROCK" :) he remembered me right away & boy was he chatty...i called him while i was at work...but in that little time i guess he did most of the talking...that was cool...he has a lot going on on his plate right now which is cool...it would be nice to hang out cuz WOW!!! we were talkin about working out ( Read more... )

This passed Friday I stayed home, which was fine by me…I actually had some ballatore & put on some of my old euro/latin music & I downloaded shakira’s new “la tortura” song…omg! That guy that sings w/ her is the bomb!!! I love that song! His lyrics are so funny but sexy! I stayed up until 3am singing & sippin’ my ballatore…CLICKYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY ( Read more... )

i'm sad again...i went through my picture files to send out pics i've promised people & of course, bumped into some that well...i can't help but ask why did this all happen? why did i love a person breathlessly (one who didn't deserve my pure love) & just go through what i went through? is the answer that it perhaps happened so that i would then be ( Read more... )