self therapy....
today i was in such a bad mood from the argument w/ carlos last night...dammit o'fuckin hell!!! i was pretty bummed out for most of the day at work but i called daisy & ramona & they would make me laugh sooooo hard....at some point b4 leaving work, i was on the phone w/ ramona & she made me laugh soooooo hard that my boss heard me from his office & was like "r u alright maura? do you need some water or something?" i had to hang up w/ ramona & replied "yes, & some tissues" cuz i was cryin from laughing so hard...both my coworkers were looking at me like i'm crazy...i haven't gone to the gym in for 2days & i'm so stressed & angry...going to the gym really helps to release frustrations...
well, i sent angel his b-day card yesterday, i sent him a happy boifday email & text msg him happy birthday..y'know what this guy does on HIS birthday? he texts me saying he's at the clinic getting tested for HIV...i asked him to last wk & he was not playin...he's so sweet...he actually did that for me & us on HIS birthday, out of all days....he really has good intentions w/ me...
when i got home, i went straight to bed to take a nap cuz i was so bummed out & exhausted from the fuckin thoughts & drama w/ carlos...too fuckin soon to be worried about drama! it's just been 2 fuckin wks!...well, when i woke up at 7pm exactly, i had such energy...i went to the nail salon to get my legs waxed & a pedicure...it was cool...i was reading this LATINA magazine (nearly read the whole thing) & found a few new beauty products i may use...so i went to the store to buy it after my nails were done...my legs are shinny & smooth, my toes are deep pink & shinny...lol...purrty!
i wanted to go to the gym but i left my mp3 at work!! dammit!! so i was just chillin...was starting to get bummed out again about carlos so i started looking through my phone for numbers of guys i may call just for the heck of it...lol...½ of them i don't even remember who they are...so i started deleting some numbers...i started calling some guys, leaving hello msgs...i must come across one at least! then i came across "THE ROCKS'" number.....heeheeheeheehee....so i called...what do i have to lose...he answered...he's soooo cool...he started telling me his life's experiences, w/ friends, girls, all...started sharing opinions about certain things..some things he said that just had me rollin'...i was laughing so hard, he was killing me....he's cool...if nothing more, i think he would just be cool to hang w/, hey! & easy on the eyes while doing so ;) heeheehee...i couldn't believe that he's gonna be almost 40yrs old & he has no kids & no ex-wife...that's awesome...he can't believe i have not kids either...we spoke for 1 hr....he was at work (he's a bouncer) & i wouldn't notice cuz we were talking the whole time w/out any interruptions...after an hr. he was like, his boss is coming so we said goodnight & that's that....heeheehee...needless to say, that was good therapy cuz i'm back into my GOOOOOOOOOOOD mooooood....lol....so, tomorrow is another day & i look forward to it being better...
good night all....
luv u....muahz!
p.s...2 songs you should get:
JAH CURE "WHAT AM I LONGING FOR"
TOK "WHEN YOU CRY"
woowoo...i love those songs...they're so touching & i like the beat...it moves me...let me know what you all think...
well, i sent angel his b-day card yesterday, i sent him a happy boifday email & text msg him happy birthday..y'know what this guy does on HIS birthday? he texts me saying he's at the clinic getting tested for HIV...i asked him to last wk & he was not playin...he's so sweet...he actually did that for me & us on HIS birthday, out of all days....he really has good intentions w/ me...
when i got home, i went straight to bed to take a nap cuz i was so bummed out & exhausted from the fuckin thoughts & drama w/ carlos...too fuckin soon to be worried about drama! it's just been 2 fuckin wks!...well, when i woke up at 7pm exactly, i had such energy...i went to the nail salon to get my legs waxed & a pedicure...it was cool...i was reading this LATINA magazine (nearly read the whole thing) & found a few new beauty products i may use...so i went to the store to buy it after my nails were done...my legs are shinny & smooth, my toes are deep pink & shinny...lol...purrty!
i wanted to go to the gym but i left my mp3 at work!! dammit!! so i was just chillin...was starting to get bummed out again about carlos so i started looking through my phone for numbers of guys i may call just for the heck of it...lol...½ of them i don't even remember who they are...so i started deleting some numbers...i started calling some guys, leaving hello msgs...i must come across one at least! then i came across "THE ROCKS'" number.....heeheeheeheehee....so i called...what do i have to lose...he answered...he's soooo cool...he started telling me his life's experiences, w/ friends, girls, all...started sharing opinions about certain things..some things he said that just had me rollin'...i was laughing so hard, he was killing me....he's cool...if nothing more, i think he would just be cool to hang w/, hey! & easy on the eyes while doing so ;) heeheehee...i couldn't believe that he's gonna be almost 40yrs old & he has no kids & no ex-wife...that's awesome...he can't believe i have not kids either...we spoke for 1 hr....he was at work (he's a bouncer) & i wouldn't notice cuz we were talking the whole time w/out any interruptions...after an hr. he was like, his boss is coming so we said goodnight & that's that....heeheehee...needless to say, that was good therapy cuz i'm back into my GOOOOOOOOOOOD mooooood....lol....so, tomorrow is another day & i look forward to it being better...
good night all....
luv u....muahz!
p.s...2 songs you should get:
JAH CURE "WHAT AM I LONGING FOR"
TOK "WHEN YOU CRY"
woowoo...i love those songs...they're so touching & i like the beat...it moves me...let me know what you all think...