Times of transition, realization, becomming are always trying in some way. With a host of cultural cliches to provide whatever comfort is possible, we still forge our own detiny towards the best, most ideal direction we can imagine at the moment.
That direction has the amazing abilty to change at any given time making us feel a bit lost but hopeful for what we desire and occassionaly want. With every new experience we learn a little more about how to better ride the waves of our lives, reaching ever closer to mastery but remaining forever an apprentice because there is no perfect formula to apply to life that always works. However, in our constant striving we experience the beauty of friends and lovers, the pain of enemies and lost relationships, and the joy of life's chaotic perfection.
I am glad to hear you have found a place that you can truly call home. Cherish it!
synchronicity is always an unexpected delight for me, and as i perused your entry there was that familiar internal *click*
i too have been musing over what my future plans were as opposed to my present reality. i don't know how many times that, as i have related my little narrative of arrival in nashville, i have spoken the phrase, "i didn't imagine i'd be doing this."
i didn't think i'd be working at a coffeeshop at 25, english degree in hand. or that i would experience such a joy and sense of community in doing so.
but looking back, i realize that i truly had little grasp of actual aspirations on my part. oh, i had ideas - professor, journalist, teacher, even graphic designer for a bit, but they were all fairly vague when it came to the how i was going to arrive at those points.
for now, my desires for the future rest less upon what i could be doing or even where i could be doing it, but rather the sort of person i want to be - the internal growth and momentum that i long for
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on another note, i don't want to trivialize the absence of doyle and taures, or to reduce it to some optimistic object lesson.
in point of fact, one of the things about you that i prize is that you would move to another city in part at least to be close to people who are meaningful to you, which i consider to be quite a countercultural act.
the unfortunate norm in our society seems to be that it's okay to move to a new place for a job, for money, but that doing so for a person is somehow flawed or unwise in some way.
*eh* to that.
true intimate community with people who love you is entirely more rare than a fucking job. and we are much more likely to find ourselves within that community than in a workplace, i think.
well, yes...but i think i should also make it clear that it is and always has been part of my "rules" that one should never move for the sake of romantic love. friends can be forever, but despite my byronic leanings, i still don't believe that a partnered love is stable enough to be grounds for relocation...unless it's already been a matter of years, numerous tests to its strength, and plenty of real-life contact leading up to the endeavor.
my move here was in part due to other people, yes--but it was far from impetuous. i'd still call any man or woman who up and moves cross-country to live with their internet mate a fool, for example.
not that you don't already know this; i just figured i'd clarify the position. my actions may be countercultural, but they've certainly not been uncalculated.
i actually almost said that in this post. but the quote was battling with "home is where the heart is," and i was having a difficult time reconciling the two.
I have not been on here that much myself latelysaltyroyJuly 30 2004, 21:18:58 UTC
I want to move to SF just have to make a timeline for myself. I can struggle and get by. I waste so much money here living in the city, just gotta plan what I want to do. Confusion still sigh
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That direction has the amazing abilty to change at any given time making us feel a bit lost but hopeful for what we desire and occassionaly want. With every new experience we learn a little more about how to better ride the waves of our lives, reaching ever closer to mastery but remaining forever an apprentice because there is no perfect formula to apply to life that always works. However, in our constant striving we experience the beauty of friends and lovers, the pain of enemies and lost relationships, and the joy of life's chaotic perfection.
I am glad to hear you have found a place that you can truly call home. Cherish it!
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synchronicity is always an unexpected delight for me, and as i perused your entry there was that familiar internal *click*
i too have been musing over what my future plans were as opposed to my present reality.
i don't know how many times that, as i have related my little narrative of arrival in nashville, i have spoken
the phrase, "i didn't imagine i'd be doing this."
i didn't think i'd be working at a coffeeshop at 25, english degree in hand.
or that i would experience such a joy and sense of community in doing so.
but looking back, i realize that i truly had little grasp of actual aspirations on my part.
oh, i had ideas - professor, journalist, teacher, even graphic designer for a bit,
but they were all fairly vague when it came to the how i was going to arrive at those points.
for now, my desires for the future rest less upon what i could be doing or even where i could be doing it, but rather the sort of person i want to be - the internal growth and momentum that i long for ( ... )
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in point of fact, one of the things about you that i prize is that you would move to another city in part at least to be close to people who are meaningful to you, which i consider to be quite a countercultural act.
the unfortunate norm in our society seems to be that it's okay to move to a new place for a job, for money, but that doing so for a person is somehow flawed or unwise in some way.
*eh* to that.
true intimate community with people who love you is entirely more rare than a fucking job.
and we are much more likely to find ourselves within that community than in a workplace, i think.
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my move here was in part due to other people, yes--but it was far from impetuous. i'd still call any man or woman who up and moves cross-country to live with their internet mate a fool, for example.
not that you don't already know this; i just figured i'd clarify the position. my actions may be countercultural, but they've certainly not been uncalculated.
*love*
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ennui330 said it all, so I shan't repeat.
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How was your summer so far? its been boring here
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