I loath my self right now.
The Physical Therapist from the child development center called. She had a cancellation and could do an evaluation on DD tomorrow at 09:30. I had to turn her offer away though; I told her I really need a more convenient hour. Either early in the morning or evening because of my work.
I really loath myself for doing this! My kids should come first PERIOD!!! But in reality it doesn't work like that. You figure, if you need money so you can support your kids and all the rest of it, then you also need to give your job priority.
My manager is stressed out at work, we are slightly short staffed on account of one girl going on maternity leave and another will be taking 3 wks off next month to go to Argentina of vacation. They don't think my work is up to par…they are probably right, but they don't understand how difficult it is to do this mundane work, day in, day out, not getting up from my seat in a constant chase after my email box to be empty. It makes my head spin sometimes.
So, I'm back in the waiting line for an appointment for DD.
Sometimes I wish I could just be a stay at home mummy, I know I would not be entirely content or happy…and financially it would murder on us…but g-d sometimes I do resent working and the BS that goes on around here.
I'm really no good in all the social bull shit. This place is worse than high school sometimes, you would not believe the broo-ha-ha's that go on here. Sometimes if feels like a day time on going drama.
Back to the grind.