people amaze me.
im hurt
really.
mad.
it's a unexplainable rage
those things he said
and what he accused me of.
i didnt tell lesean one word
he did all the talking! i just sent him the convo.
and say anything about justin? bullshit.
i didnt even have a problem with justin.
what I did say was that they were a circle of friends
and when you do something to one of them
especially the guys, then you're pretty much out.
which is true.
oh. and when he tried to play it off that him and I did something.
I started shaking so bad. Im so pissed at him.
he even told me that he talked to LeSean and told him
that the whole time i was over there i was crying about LeSean.
that's all I talked about was him.
I was fucking hurt and he took TOTAL ADVANTAGE of that.
telling me it was going to be ok.
all of it was bullshit!
and then when he was my friend.. telling me I could talk to him about anything.
I felt that I really could
until he started getting pissed because I didn't want to hook up
and "see how it was and then go from there" because i "might just like it"
fuck him
and so I sent that convo to lesean because i needed to know what to do.
he wouldnt leave it alone..
and he was saying that he didnt give a fuck about LeSean anymore
so here he was doing what he was doing to me, to LeSean.
pulling wool over my eyes and his.
and he wants to say Im fake!?
which, I really don't give a shit what he thinks..
im sure he's prolly trying to get others to think im a whore and what not.
which anyone who even has hung around me would be crazy to think.
i didnt even like it when lesean would open the door with his room mates around and i was in my pants and bra.
but that's not the point.
what really hurt the most was when he said he should have left me at Fattys
the only reason he did that was bc he thought i was a real friend.
but.. if i knew someone, even if they werent a "real friend" going through whatever happened the night
i'd do that for them regardless.
so i guess that just says something about him.
there's no talking to him.
but anyone who knows Brad, knows how he is.
Drama.
so why does this bother me??
bc he was trying to make friends with LeSean
calling me "some girl"
"you're going to ruin our friendship over *some girl*?"
he doesn't even know what we had.
so when he pretended to know what i was going through.
that was bullshit.
i can't believe he would have just left me there.
and then that night when i "hit lesean on the head"
which I would never, intentionally hurt him
if I was going to.. it'd be the night I saw what I saw through the window
and I didn't.. so that's proof enough i'd never try to hurt him.
but i hit the back of his chair because he didn't believe me about Brad saying things
and LeSean called Brad, and was lied to right in front of his face
and I was called a LIAR!!!
rrrrrrrrrr. I was so mad because he believed Brad over me.
but none of this matters now.
it's done and somehow I've become stronger.
I think we both have.
Brad is still dwelling on it.
and I don't want to be anything like him.
Im out of words.
I'm done with it.
so Im forgetting Brad but not the situation
and learning from it.
really.
mad.
it's a unexplainable rage
those things he said
and what he accused me of.
i didnt tell lesean one word
he did all the talking! i just sent him the convo.
and say anything about justin? bullshit.
i didnt even have a problem with justin.
what I did say was that they were a circle of friends
and when you do something to one of them
especially the guys, then you're pretty much out.
which is true.
oh. and when he tried to play it off that him and I did something.
I started shaking so bad. Im so pissed at him.
he even told me that he talked to LeSean and told him
that the whole time i was over there i was crying about LeSean.
that's all I talked about was him.
I was fucking hurt and he took TOTAL ADVANTAGE of that.
telling me it was going to be ok.
all of it was bullshit!
and then when he was my friend.. telling me I could talk to him about anything.
I felt that I really could
until he started getting pissed because I didn't want to hook up
and "see how it was and then go from there" because i "might just like it"
fuck him
and so I sent that convo to lesean because i needed to know what to do.
he wouldnt leave it alone..
and he was saying that he didnt give a fuck about LeSean anymore
so here he was doing what he was doing to me, to LeSean.
pulling wool over my eyes and his.
and he wants to say Im fake!?
which, I really don't give a shit what he thinks..
im sure he's prolly trying to get others to think im a whore and what not.
which anyone who even has hung around me would be crazy to think.
i didnt even like it when lesean would open the door with his room mates around and i was in my pants and bra.
but that's not the point.
what really hurt the most was when he said he should have left me at Fattys
the only reason he did that was bc he thought i was a real friend.
but.. if i knew someone, even if they werent a "real friend" going through whatever happened the night
i'd do that for them regardless.
so i guess that just says something about him.
there's no talking to him.
but anyone who knows Brad, knows how he is.
Drama.
so why does this bother me??
bc he was trying to make friends with LeSean
calling me "some girl"
"you're going to ruin our friendship over *some girl*?"
he doesn't even know what we had.
so when he pretended to know what i was going through.
that was bullshit.
i can't believe he would have just left me there.
and then that night when i "hit lesean on the head"
which I would never, intentionally hurt him
if I was going to.. it'd be the night I saw what I saw through the window
and I didn't.. so that's proof enough i'd never try to hurt him.
but i hit the back of his chair because he didn't believe me about Brad saying things
and LeSean called Brad, and was lied to right in front of his face
and I was called a LIAR!!!
rrrrrrrrrr. I was so mad because he believed Brad over me.
but none of this matters now.
it's done and somehow I've become stronger.
I think we both have.
Brad is still dwelling on it.
and I don't want to be anything like him.
Im out of words.
I'm done with it.
so Im forgetting Brad but not the situation
and learning from it.