I wonder when I will attend a friend's wedding. I wonder if I will get married. I wonder how long before someone I love gets an incurable disease. I wonder if I will get one. I wonder how many friends will die before me. I wonder who wonders about these things. I'm not scared.

kicking rocks again.

A superstitious hyperrealist.
I'll make you mine.

For a minute there, I lost myself.

I just randomly checked craigslist ads in santa cruz, san francisco, and portland for dog daycare or vet assistant stuff and found a lot of jobs. I think this might be easier than I thought. I am getting so excited to leave!

tentative trips to pass the time:
portland sept 16-22
peru oct 4-12
new york dec 29-jan 3

just keep swimming. just keep

The past couple months have been like a mental renaissance for me. My mind is growing and challenging and learning and I have been trying to focus on strengthening the Self. Yesterday I realized something that has set me back quite a bit. I have always been a big supporter of love, but now I am seeing it as a weakness. I am just having a hard time ( Read more... )

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I haven't willingly read a book since high school. I am half way through Siddhartha and its flipping my lid. I'm thinking I should sell my 42" tv and buy some more books ( Read more... )

I got really bad anxiety earlier which never happens. Or maybe just emotional? I hate this.

I need the next 6 months to go by very quickly. Maybe I will have things figured out by then.

made a flickr account for my holga pictures. posted shots from my trip north last weekend. check em out! http://www.flickr.com/photos/40053169@N07/