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My fire has been dim latly. I have little motivation to even move. But see the thing is, there are exciting things in my near future... yet I have no desire to do anything but sleep.
And ya know... I've begun taking Zoloft...shhh But I know I can't rely on it to solve my personal issues, or magically fix the fact that I still always feel alone. I feel like I'm a prisoner, stuck in my thoughts all day long. I constently question people, I am always in search of the easy way out. I have become a horrible student. I skip classes, I lie and make excuses... to make myself feel better. I constantly dissapoint myself. I have the world at my fingertips, but I just don't want to try... It's the worst feeling to know that you're not meeting your potential, falling short day after day. I know I'm not a bad person, I just wish I could lose this pain in the pit of my stomach.
I can't wait until this year is just over.