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Hi.
So after several attempts to write here, I am finally committing to an entry.
How's Life? ... well I'm alive... The question is, am I living?
Right now, I'm not exactly sure if you could say what I'm doing is living. I'm existing.
Things have been less than glamorous latly. Emotions are up and down, school is hard... my boss is a bitch. But the people that surround me seem to be okay. If it weren't for my friends than...well.
I want to be happy. And some days I am, but its like that commercial for the energy shot drink: you're up and running at maximum speed and than you crash harder than ever. That's a typical day for me. Fast, hurry hurry hurry, awesome, yay, hehehe ......splat.
I feel like I don't try hard enough. I don't ever put out my greatest effort, and I think that one day I may regret it... I am actually starting to now. I want to be an awesome teacher, friend, and person. And no matter what the people in my life tell me, I know
I need to feel that greatness within me.
I think I know why I like drinking. It's because when I am intoxicated I lose my ability to fucking give a damn about my emotions. And I let myself be free and enjoy life. I know it sounds bad, and some of you may be like whoa...
Don't worry I drink like 3 or 4 times a MONTH... and its at a party.
Anywho, I am coming home Nov. 8th-11th. Stephi, I am going to that Upward Bound thing, are you!
Peace out bitches. I hope you all are enjoying life.
<3Chayna
So after several attempts to write here, I am finally committing to an entry.
How's Life? ... well I'm alive... The question is, am I living?
Right now, I'm not exactly sure if you could say what I'm doing is living. I'm existing.
Things have been less than glamorous latly. Emotions are up and down, school is hard... my boss is a bitch. But the people that surround me seem to be okay. If it weren't for my friends than...well.
I want to be happy. And some days I am, but its like that commercial for the energy shot drink: you're up and running at maximum speed and than you crash harder than ever. That's a typical day for me. Fast, hurry hurry hurry, awesome, yay, hehehe ......splat.
I feel like I don't try hard enough. I don't ever put out my greatest effort, and I think that one day I may regret it... I am actually starting to now. I want to be an awesome teacher, friend, and person. And no matter what the people in my life tell me, I know
I need to feel that greatness within me.
I think I know why I like drinking. It's because when I am intoxicated I lose my ability to fucking give a damn about my emotions. And I let myself be free and enjoy life. I know it sounds bad, and some of you may be like whoa...
Don't worry I drink like 3 or 4 times a MONTH... and its at a party.
Anywho, I am coming home Nov. 8th-11th. Stephi, I am going to that Upward Bound thing, are you!
Peace out bitches. I hope you all are enjoying life.
<3Chayna