even.worse
i've had a lot more "worst.dream.ever"s since the last time i posted.
night before last? my parents were tormenting me and trying to convince everyone in my life how horrible i am. they were saying i was a bad person, etc. i was terrified of them and kept looking for someone to protect me. they were physically chasing me. they seemed to have superhuman powers because they always knew where i was anyway and would come after me. when i told peaches about this dream yesterday, i cried about it, and how hard it is to believe that i am a good person today because of 20+ years that i went through believing otherwise.
night before that (i think)? covered from head to toe in blood, showered and showered but couldn't get it all off.
i cried 3 times yesterday. first about the dream where my parents were coming after me (it was truly terrifying), then about things going on with a good friend of mine who i feel like i'm losing after many years of friendship. i cried one more time, but i don't remember what that was about. got choked up on the phone with
brachypelmic.
drcrutchleg held me as i fell asleep last night. it was nice.
you know what's especially weird? terrible nightmares are nothing new. but my emotional reaction to them is. usually i feel nothing.
charlie, ziggy, and i are off to
brachypelmic's place in indiana tonight to do some zoo-sitting while she and
d3p3ch3mod3 are at bonnaroo. i'll be back in about a week. maybe a little more, maybe a little less. i may or may not get online while i'm down there. don't be surprised if i don't.
emc
May, 2007
State Theatre
Kalamazoo, MI
the inside of this place is gorgeous.
kalamazoo state theatre
night before last? my parents were tormenting me and trying to convince everyone in my life how horrible i am. they were saying i was a bad person, etc. i was terrified of them and kept looking for someone to protect me. they were physically chasing me. they seemed to have superhuman powers because they always knew where i was anyway and would come after me. when i told peaches about this dream yesterday, i cried about it, and how hard it is to believe that i am a good person today because of 20+ years that i went through believing otherwise.
night before that (i think)? covered from head to toe in blood, showered and showered but couldn't get it all off.
i cried 3 times yesterday. first about the dream where my parents were coming after me (it was truly terrifying), then about things going on with a good friend of mine who i feel like i'm losing after many years of friendship. i cried one more time, but i don't remember what that was about. got choked up on the phone with
brachypelmic.
drcrutchleg held me as i fell asleep last night. it was nice.
you know what's especially weird? terrible nightmares are nothing new. but my emotional reaction to them is. usually i feel nothing.
charlie, ziggy, and i are off to
brachypelmic's place in indiana tonight to do some zoo-sitting while she and
d3p3ch3mod3 are at bonnaroo. i'll be back in about a week. maybe a little more, maybe a little less. i may or may not get online while i'm down there. don't be surprised if i don't.
emc
May, 2007
State Theatre
Kalamazoo, MI
the inside of this place is gorgeous.
kalamazoo state theatre