First day completely friendless goodbye sobriety

[ominousthomas]

Well I'm having fun stleast got some bags of dope. Bought some new spikes small tips so mommy does t say dear boy your obvy using, I'm drinking cold medicine like mothers milk blasting new wave driving the car without a license avoiding careening into people. Ha I don't like Mondays this livens it up. Thank you Brenda Ann spencer your ceartainly right. I'm standing right here what do I see a big nothing threatening me. Contemplating driving to Gloucester and kicking the shit out of Lewis. If I can't have Heidi in my life again not even just to text or email why should he have teeth? No more sad Tom, psychotic violent Tom returns back to the mental institution soon enough or jail so I don't care. I got nothing to live for anyways. My mother leaves in a few weeks for the south and ill hve all the time in the world for my reign of terror. First I'm going to murder my sister then go dig up my gun. And then who knows. Oh I know I'll need a new copy of catcher in the rye. That way they will try and figure out why catcher i the rye influenced me.
God im stupid.
I shouldn't hurt wnyone but me
God I need to go backto the hospital. They should just lock me up. Why woldnt the fucking army take me. Why won't the seminary take me. I just wanna leave I do t want to be me anymore I hate me so much it's beyond fixable. I hate everything my skin my face by bones my memories tht ext won't get rid off the fact the heroin isn't working unless I get drunk first. Oh well off to the packy. I'm out of wild irsh rose for breakfest.