stole this from Gayle...even though i`ve done it before! ^_^
...yeahm i`ve posted this up before, but my statements and people have changed.
TRY THIS: Write ten statements intended towards 10 different peple that you would never say to their face or something you wish you could have said but didn't. Never tell them it was about them...unless one day you decide you can't hold back anymore.
1. I will always love you. Even though you never returned the feelings, and you`re with someone new, and you`re in love and happy...i mean, don`t get me wrong; i`ve moved on...or rather let go...but just know...you will always be "that person" to me. I`ll never forget you...because you were and are my first love.
2. Thank you for always being there for me. It`s been what, five years now??? We`ve had so many good times, through thick and thin and everything inbetween. I love that you can accept me for all my faults and I am so lucky to have you in my life.
3. Sometimes there comes a time between friends where they take it past friendship. Over that time, I`ve come to really like you as more than a friend. You bring out the best in me, never let me doubt myself, and most of all, you`re always there for me. I can only hope that maybe one day you`ll feel the same. I just wish i had the courage to tell you, but when the time is right, I will. Just know that for you, i`d wait for as long as it takes.
4. Ever since I met you freshman year, I thought you were so cool. You`re funny, educated, and just a great person to be around. This year...is different. I know now that you`ve started to see me in a different light, and if my heart didn`t already belong to another person, I would honestly consider it. I hope that we can stay friends.
5. What can I say? I know that I`ve known you ever since I was born, but I was never really comfortable with talking about personal matters until just a few years ago. You`ve given me such great advice and you`re always there for me. You help me up when I fall.
6. Even though you`re younger, man...you`re smart!!! lol. But really...a few years ago I would have never been able to talk to you about the things that I do. But you`ve really grown up...really shown maturity...that may be because you`ve had to...even so, I love you with all my heart...you`re the closest thing to a brother that I have...and i`m just really lucky.
7. I wish that we could get along...really, you say you understand me, but you don`t. Honestly, I don`t tell you anything that goes on in my life, because I just can`t...now do you understand why you have to work so hard to get it out of me? I can`t confide in someone whom I have no respect for...it needs to be earned...maybe if you allowed me to be me...and accepted me for me...and just let me...be...instead you restrict me...imprison me...constantly challenge me...and then expect for me to willingly participate in a loving relationship...i`m sorry but i can`t do that, and i don`t think i`ll ever be able to...we`re never going to see eye-to-eye.
8. I`m so scared...that i`m going to lose you...that you will soon be out of my life...and honestly i can`t see that happening. I don`t know who or where i`d be without you...wait, yes i do...i`d be completely lost and utterly miserable...it`s not that i depend on you so much as i just...need you. So please, don`t forget...me.
9. I wish that I had the power to solve the differences between us. But i don`t. and it`s a two-way street, and you obviously aren`t interested in participating, so I have decided to give up. It`s heart-wrenching, heart-breaking, painful, yet relieving--all at the same time. I wish we could bridge that huge gap between us, the gap that only widens with each foward step I take.
10. Stop underestimating yourself!!! You`re smart, beautiful--inside and out. You try your best...you give it your all...so please don`t get worked up over your failures...we aren`t perfect, no one is, it doesn`t exist--to try and attain such a level is only a waste of time. I wish that you could see how wonderful you are. I wish that you could accept yourself. You need to start believing in yourself and stop keeping your emotions inside of you.
yeah i know these are long...but...these people [should] know who they are...because these are the words that I can`t say...maybe it`s not the right time, maybe it`s not meant to be said, only to be felt...but...yeyah!!!
oh...my head hurts...my tummy hurts...but my heart is killing me.
i went to my Kong`s [grandpa] house and as i had feared, he outline his funeral plans to the detail...telling us how to arrange the funeral [he wants us to have people over at the house after his funeral], how much money he has and what to do with it, how to act as he passes away...how to live life...how to behave around each other...i did not want to hear any of that...because...Kong is the head of our family, our "foundation," you could say...and to hear that...already planning is death when he has so much to live for...nearly broke my heart. I love him so much. I know everyone has their time to pass away, but...I don`t want to think about it. Then my cousin Sorina prayed...and...what she said...I just started to cry, because...i know that he doesn`t have much time left. He is so weak, so frail...yet i`m so thankful that he has God in his heart...so i`ll see him when it`s my turn...he doesn`t remember much...his strongest memory is the sacrifice that Jesus made...and...i`m so sad...i can`t even type anything more...