I guess sometimes I wish I could change. That sometimes, I could be someone else; someone who didn't care as much. Someone that doesn't get affected by things that doesn't matter.

If I were to get upset every time someone didn't like me, I'd probably live a life of misery. But I am not, and I do not.

But there are other things, things I care about ( Read more... )

There are some things in life, that you are forced to overcome. Some of them are quite easy to handle, but some takes a bit more strength.  There are things life wants you to forget, some things it wants you to remember, some things to keep and some to lose.

To keep trying, because of some things.
To keep trying, despite of some things.

This is the ( Read more... )

Oh. Was that me hurting you? Was that me disappointing you? Was that me, making you lose all your respect in me?

I know it was, don't you worry.

You didn't tell me, but I can feel it. I can, everytime I don't live up to your expectations. Everytime I'm not as great as you wish I was. You don't tell me, because, how can you tell me that you expect me ( Read more... )

I'm lost. And not just out of my mind lost, I mean.. I'm lost. In life. I know this is just a phase, I know. In ten minutes, I will have forgotten all about this. But right now, I feel as if I can see things clearly. I feel as if my life is a map and I can see the whole picture, instead of small parts.

My life.. To make it easier, I picture it as a ( Read more... )

Let's tell myself that it doesn't matter.
I'm trying to.
But then I ask myself.. What does matter?

I do know what matters. I know what matters to me.
You don't think I do, don't you? I can see it in your eyes. The "You have no idea what you're talking about, even though you think so. You'll soon realize it." look. It makes me confused.

I want to say ( Read more... )

I got a flashback about a few minutes ago. A familiar feeling returned. I haven't felt it in a very long time.
And it's making my heart ache. Because you always miss what is familiar. You're safe with what is familiar.
I didn't use to like it - but I used to know it.

Don't thank me. Don't praise me. Don't tell me I am something.

You're making me ( Read more... )

Today is a rollar-coaster of weirdness. I don't think there is a single emotion in the whole world that I didn't experience today.
The ones I felt the most was indifference, disappointment, despair, happiness, delight, relief and confusion.

Why do I even feel confusion? Aren't I the one to know everything? I'm the girl. The ideal - the one being ( Read more... )