John Wayne Gacy Jr.
So I am listening to the song that titles my entry by Sufjan Stevens.
It's on repeat... I think I'm hitting the second hour of the this-song-is-the-soundtrack-to-my-reality mode.
I never experience a more sincere devotion than when I fall in love with a song. Every other noise is inadequate, and no other song can empathize with me more thoroughly than the one on repeat.
I finished my final paper two hours ago, my semester is over and I am steadily becoming drunk on Red Stripe beer. It's delicious, so is this song, and so is this empty apartment. I have not felt this beautiful (as in one of many items that carry some degree of beauty in a moment, and a place that infects me with it's own beauty) in so very long.
John Wayne Gacy was a serial killer, fairly common knowledge.
He was a sexual sadist and murdered twenty-seven boys, hiding their corpses under the floor boards of his home.
He dressed like a clown, and was well liked.
I learned about him in my crim class this term.
I read so many horrible things by the end of semester that I would actually cry in the course of my research. This stuff can be so painful to hear, and attempt to understand.
But this song -- it puts such a juvenile beauty into his actions. It says "and he kissed them all" in reference to his victims, and he did, and as distressing as it is...
Those lyrics almost make everything okay.
I can almost understand it now.
It's on repeat... I think I'm hitting the second hour of the this-song-is-the-soundtrack-to-my-reality mode.
I never experience a more sincere devotion than when I fall in love with a song. Every other noise is inadequate, and no other song can empathize with me more thoroughly than the one on repeat.
I finished my final paper two hours ago, my semester is over and I am steadily becoming drunk on Red Stripe beer. It's delicious, so is this song, and so is this empty apartment. I have not felt this beautiful (as in one of many items that carry some degree of beauty in a moment, and a place that infects me with it's own beauty) in so very long.
John Wayne Gacy was a serial killer, fairly common knowledge.
He was a sexual sadist and murdered twenty-seven boys, hiding their corpses under the floor boards of his home.
He dressed like a clown, and was well liked.
I learned about him in my crim class this term.
I read so many horrible things by the end of semester that I would actually cry in the course of my research. This stuff can be so painful to hear, and attempt to understand.
But this song -- it puts such a juvenile beauty into his actions. It says "and he kissed them all" in reference to his victims, and he did, and as distressing as it is...
Those lyrics almost make everything okay.
I can almost understand it now.