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Well, yesterday did turn around, but only for a little bit. By 7pm, I was exhausted. This is SO weird for me, considering I used to be up until 4 am every night. Plus, looking through my old posts, I see that I was always complaining about not eating, and not being able to sleep because of it. Now my body just shuts down. I went to bed at 10pm again, and woke up at 1am... fell back asleep by 5am. Seriously wonder if I would have even fallen back asleep if I didn't take that sleeping pill at 1am when I woke up. (OTC sleeping pill, I am still very able to get up with my daughter every few hours to feed her when she cries.)
But yeah, it's 11am, and I already know this is going to be another day where I feel like a total zombie. :( I guess it's worth it though, because I did lose another pound, and beauty is pain. And truthfully, I don't even feel hungry, like... ever. So I honestly think the reason for my feeling this way, is my wacky sleep schedule lately. I definitely could have slept in this morning, but once again, baby was crying... and fiance was up getting ready to leave for work. I was going to get a couple more hours of sleep, but baby had other plans. I would LOVE to feel great way more than I do... but as of lately, the only day where I get to feel awake, excited, and amazing... is Saturday. That's because fiance lets me get a full 8 hours of sleep while he gets up with baby on Friday night. My poor body isn't getting food OR sleep... I wish I was AT LEAST getting sleep! Why do I keep waking up in the middle of the night for hours?
And fiance isn't being very cool about me eating less anymore. So now I might have to start lying to him, which sucks. I definitely liked being able to live my life the way I want, but last night he kept insisting on getting food for me, and I kept repeating "I'm-not-hungry."
I think he'd be more cool about it if I wasn't falling over dead by the time he got home from work. But I told him the same thing I said in my last paragraph, "It's from lack of sleep, not food." I mean, I'm sure if it were lack of food, I would feel *hungry* not *tired.*
I feel so empty, and it's AWESOME, but my body is still morbidly obese :( I just want this weight gone.
But yeah, it's 11am, and I already know this is going to be another day where I feel like a total zombie. :( I guess it's worth it though, because I did lose another pound, and beauty is pain. And truthfully, I don't even feel hungry, like... ever. So I honestly think the reason for my feeling this way, is my wacky sleep schedule lately. I definitely could have slept in this morning, but once again, baby was crying... and fiance was up getting ready to leave for work. I was going to get a couple more hours of sleep, but baby had other plans. I would LOVE to feel great way more than I do... but as of lately, the only day where I get to feel awake, excited, and amazing... is Saturday. That's because fiance lets me get a full 8 hours of sleep while he gets up with baby on Friday night. My poor body isn't getting food OR sleep... I wish I was AT LEAST getting sleep! Why do I keep waking up in the middle of the night for hours?
And fiance isn't being very cool about me eating less anymore. So now I might have to start lying to him, which sucks. I definitely liked being able to live my life the way I want, but last night he kept insisting on getting food for me, and I kept repeating "I'm-not-hungry."
I think he'd be more cool about it if I wasn't falling over dead by the time he got home from work. But I told him the same thing I said in my last paragraph, "It's from lack of sleep, not food." I mean, I'm sure if it were lack of food, I would feel *hungry* not *tired.*
I feel so empty, and it's AWESOME, but my body is still morbidly obese :( I just want this weight gone.