i tried to love you, i thought i could/ i tried to own you, i thought i would
okay, first and foremost after reading someone's entry again in review.. i'd just like to say this much: don't fucking kiss me and act like you want me if i'm not really what you want. fuck that. & fuck you.
sigh. anyway.
this weekend was supposed to be good, but it kinda blowed. probably because i just kept having recurring dreams & thoughts of a certain boy. goddamn him. why can't he just quit haunting me. we don't even talk anymore. and to make matters worse, he STILL has something of mine, and refuses to give it back. he claims he doesn't have it. bullshit.
so friday i came home after work. i was going to call catfish and see what he was up to. or go to the parking lot. or do SOMETHING. but fucking me ends up locking herself outside the house. i didn't have my car keys or anything so i decided to make the best of it. while i waited on my grandma to bring me a key to the house, i played around in the hose outside (i was in my bikini and shorts), then i washed my car. it was great. my grandma thought i was crazy.. when she pulled up and i was soaking wet, washing my car. well, what else are you going to do when it's fucking 90 degrees outside and you're stuck there?
so then i went in, got a shower, that kindof thing. johnathan called. so i just ended up meeting up with him and we went to my grandparents' house for a bit to visit. then we drove around. went to the parking lot. no one really there. went to sonic's. dropped him back off at his truck. came home.
saturday morning, woke up early, johnathan came over. packed up the car, met my two cousins (priscilla & marion) at the waffle house, ate breakfast, then headed to charlotte. went to carowinds.. had a blast. won all kinds of stuffed animals, rode all the roller coasters (the borg was AWESOME as hell), then got a hotel room, got some beer, and crashed there in charlotte for the night. woke up the next morning to RAIN.. and drove home. then slept all day once i got home. i was soo tired.
while i was gone my cousin decided the horses need to be fed twice a day so he just up and changes their schedule on me.. without informing me. atleast i found out myself. i was going to start feeding them twice a day, anyhow, cause i want them to put on more weight, but they could've TOLD me so i could know WHEN to feed them. speaking of which, i'm about to go feed them now. and we need to get hay tomorrow. those horses go through hay so damn fast it's not funny.
that's all for now.
sigh. anyway.
this weekend was supposed to be good, but it kinda blowed. probably because i just kept having recurring dreams & thoughts of a certain boy. goddamn him. why can't he just quit haunting me. we don't even talk anymore. and to make matters worse, he STILL has something of mine, and refuses to give it back. he claims he doesn't have it. bullshit.
so friday i came home after work. i was going to call catfish and see what he was up to. or go to the parking lot. or do SOMETHING. but fucking me ends up locking herself outside the house. i didn't have my car keys or anything so i decided to make the best of it. while i waited on my grandma to bring me a key to the house, i played around in the hose outside (i was in my bikini and shorts), then i washed my car. it was great. my grandma thought i was crazy.. when she pulled up and i was soaking wet, washing my car. well, what else are you going to do when it's fucking 90 degrees outside and you're stuck there?
so then i went in, got a shower, that kindof thing. johnathan called. so i just ended up meeting up with him and we went to my grandparents' house for a bit to visit. then we drove around. went to the parking lot. no one really there. went to sonic's. dropped him back off at his truck. came home.
saturday morning, woke up early, johnathan came over. packed up the car, met my two cousins (priscilla & marion) at the waffle house, ate breakfast, then headed to charlotte. went to carowinds.. had a blast. won all kinds of stuffed animals, rode all the roller coasters (the borg was AWESOME as hell), then got a hotel room, got some beer, and crashed there in charlotte for the night. woke up the next morning to RAIN.. and drove home. then slept all day once i got home. i was soo tired.
while i was gone my cousin decided the horses need to be fed twice a day so he just up and changes their schedule on me.. without informing me. atleast i found out myself. i was going to start feeding them twice a day, anyhow, cause i want them to put on more weight, but they could've TOLD me so i could know WHEN to feed them. speaking of which, i'm about to go feed them now. and we need to get hay tomorrow. those horses go through hay so damn fast it's not funny.
that's all for now.