i've kissed mermaids/ rode the el nino/ walked the sands with the crustaceans
i'm sorry. i am. i've just been severely depressed lately. and if you know me or anything about my past, you'll know that me being severely depressed is NOT good. hopefully things won't escalate to the level they did when i was younger. but i do, however, feel myself sinking back down to that level of apathy, pessimism, anger, and sadness.
maybe i'm too emotional. who knows.
but it's been kindof hard, because i have no true friends left, so it seems. even my own cousin, whom i consider one of my best friends and one of the ONLY people i can talk to on a deep level, betrayed me this past weekend and lost my trust BIG time. i doubt i'll even speak to her for the next couple of weeks. just because i'm so angry with her.
the only person that seems to be left is sheri. she's always there for me. and i love her to death. i don't know what i'd do without her. then again, she is family. which leaves me back to square one.. i still have no true FRIENDS left. not family. friends.
but that's okay. i'm probably better off alone. and i wouldn't want to burden anyone with my problems. or complicate their lives.
i try so hard to look for the good in things, and i remember what tara said, but sometimes it's really hard. like right now. but hopefully today will get better. it can't get much worse.
maybe i'm too emotional. who knows.
but it's been kindof hard, because i have no true friends left, so it seems. even my own cousin, whom i consider one of my best friends and one of the ONLY people i can talk to on a deep level, betrayed me this past weekend and lost my trust BIG time. i doubt i'll even speak to her for the next couple of weeks. just because i'm so angry with her.
the only person that seems to be left is sheri. she's always there for me. and i love her to death. i don't know what i'd do without her. then again, she is family. which leaves me back to square one.. i still have no true FRIENDS left. not family. friends.
but that's okay. i'm probably better off alone. and i wouldn't want to burden anyone with my problems. or complicate their lives.
i try so hard to look for the good in things, and i remember what tara said, but sometimes it's really hard. like right now. but hopefully today will get better. it can't get much worse.