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april 4th. nuts
From the top. Ed called me the other day. I was so releaved to hear his voice. I went to see him in the hospital the other day and i couldnt even take it. I just felt he was gone. My mom told me that with the tumor he had and the size that he had hed be lucky to get twelve to twenty four months. I couldnt believe it. When i went to visit him in the hospital he just looked like a vegitable. I thought he was already dead. I kept thinking back to when i watched the nurse put the morphine in his veins. The last time i spoke words to him. I told him how i loved him and how when he got out id buy him pizza at the new place i was working. He told me to ask my friends if they knew anyone selling a cheap truck, cause hed need one to get back to work, "when all this shit was over with".
Worse comes to worse, i love ed and i know that he knows his lord and savior and that there is nothing to fear except fear alone.
I was talking to grant the other day and apparently his bosses at red bull say im a nice guy. They know my name, so that must mean something. Hopefully ill get the M.E.T. Job.
Im starting to worry about this new house i found and were trying to move into now. We sent our applications in. It took us longer than i wish it would have taken us but we sent them in and hopefully we will get it. Its a really nice place and its only 950 a month. Freshly remodeled with a basement and fireplace, whole ten yards. We'll be having a kegger if we get it fer sher.
So i went on my date with casondra last night. Possible one of the worst dates ive been on in a long long while. A)she didnt really like the restaurant B)never take a girl to a comedy club.
Seriously, we almost got into a argument over whos paying for what at the front desk of the comedy club. I was trying to pay for it all, she was trying to go dutch, and was upset cause they didnt take debit and i dont think she wanted to go there to begin with. It was amature night and it was awful. Seriously, every bad joke felt like a dager being pushed further and further into my chest. I looked over to see if she was even smiling at the jokes. Nope. That just made me laugh at how crazy bad the situation was. I dont know, i invited her to a concert on sat. downtown at some like warehouse loft, she said she'd go if she didnt have any plans, but im working so thats pretty much out of the picture.
Sheeeew, i sure hate the dating scene. I kinda wish i was back in highschool.
From the top. Ed called me the other day. I was so releaved to hear his voice. I went to see him in the hospital the other day and i couldnt even take it. I just felt he was gone. My mom told me that with the tumor he had and the size that he had hed be lucky to get twelve to twenty four months. I couldnt believe it. When i went to visit him in the hospital he just looked like a vegitable. I thought he was already dead. I kept thinking back to when i watched the nurse put the morphine in his veins. The last time i spoke words to him. I told him how i loved him and how when he got out id buy him pizza at the new place i was working. He told me to ask my friends if they knew anyone selling a cheap truck, cause hed need one to get back to work, "when all this shit was over with".
Worse comes to worse, i love ed and i know that he knows his lord and savior and that there is nothing to fear except fear alone.
I was talking to grant the other day and apparently his bosses at red bull say im a nice guy. They know my name, so that must mean something. Hopefully ill get the M.E.T. Job.
Im starting to worry about this new house i found and were trying to move into now. We sent our applications in. It took us longer than i wish it would have taken us but we sent them in and hopefully we will get it. Its a really nice place and its only 950 a month. Freshly remodeled with a basement and fireplace, whole ten yards. We'll be having a kegger if we get it fer sher.
So i went on my date with casondra last night. Possible one of the worst dates ive been on in a long long while. A)she didnt really like the restaurant B)never take a girl to a comedy club.
Seriously, we almost got into a argument over whos paying for what at the front desk of the comedy club. I was trying to pay for it all, she was trying to go dutch, and was upset cause they didnt take debit and i dont think she wanted to go there to begin with. It was amature night and it was awful. Seriously, every bad joke felt like a dager being pushed further and further into my chest. I looked over to see if she was even smiling at the jokes. Nope. That just made me laugh at how crazy bad the situation was. I dont know, i invited her to a concert on sat. downtown at some like warehouse loft, she said she'd go if she didnt have any plans, but im working so thats pretty much out of the picture.
Sheeeew, i sure hate the dating scene. I kinda wish i was back in highschool.