This post concerns my triumph in coming to terms with Heather. Since we still share financial obligations, it was only a matter of time before we'd have to speak again, and as it turns out, we had to meet shortly after I wrote that post. I wasn't sure what to expect, but fortunately it turned out well. She was very outgoing, which was surprising, ( Read more... )

I saw the photos from Heather’s Halloween party. I read about her vacation to California with Jared. She’s really happy with him. I’m honestly surprised. I wonder if he really has changed. It wasn’t a writhing coil of spite or jealousy that made me think he was a poor choice in partners; I honestly think he’s a bad person with a hopeless future. I ( Read more... )

I have mixed feelings about this conversation with episcopus. For my memory’s reference, I’ve recorded the original conversation in addition to a point-for-point debate in an LJ-cut below. Don’t read this unless you’re either bored or interested in drama.

( For memory and argument's sake. )

( This is a spiteful piece I wrote concerning an ex-friend and an ex-love. My intention is to creatively release some of my pent up aggression. )

I’m working on getting my upcoming vacation to work with my schedule. So far everything has been approved, and things are looking great. August 25th through the 29th I’ll be in California getting my chill on. I’ll work the 30th and the 31st, and then September 1st through the 10th I’ll be back on vacation.

On the 4th I’ll be attending Nocturnal ( Read more... )

Heather and I are speaking again as of Thursday, May 27th. I wasn’t sure how things would turn out at first, but so far it’s going well. I am glad that we could be friends in the end. She may be the only girl in this world who truly understands me. If I believed in the ideal concept of a “best friend”, it would definitely be her. She is generous, ( Read more... )

( Warning: Erotic content from last night’s dream contained within. )

Holy fuck. I am so pissed off right now ( Read more... )

I have been making a very real effort to abolish Heather from my life. For some reason, she still haunts my mind. Everything I do reminds me of her. Everything I see. Everywhere I go. Nothing is real anymore. I posted before about how life lacks meaning... the reason is because I can't let go of the past two and a half years that I spent in love ( Read more... )

It's amazing that I tend to find so much beauty in the arms of misery. Driving home tonight was an experience. The streets are so quiet. The city is so peaceful. The rain seems solumn, like a sad sky showing a wealth of sympathy for my plight. Funny how the human mind reads into things. Funny how when one thought consumes your mind, you can see it ( Read more... )