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So Chris and I were supposed to meet up over el internet on Saturday morning... I have to wake up early early to gmail chat with him.
He did not show.
He did not answer my calls that day.
I decided not to talk to him for a while... meaning no calls to the UK. No emails to him. No text messages. No facebook wall crap.
Nada.
Its probably going to kill me more then him.
And that also makes me question things.
I am horrible at answering my own questions though. And fear asking other people them. And when brought up to Chris seems hopeless...
On other news~
I start "training" at the child care center tomorrow. I also have a job interview (tomorrow too) that is for two nights a week at a rape and violence center for women. I hope I get the job. Not just for extra money, but to get my foot in the door... As far as inspirational work world goes- doing good for the community and all that.
I hope to lose weight as I will have to ride my bike all over for two jobs. Or even just for the one job.
I tried to make friendship with a girl today that is in transition, but now I am nervous about it, cause socially she is very delayed... and more awkward then me. Not sure if that's going to work... As if you have not noticed my friends generally tend to be people that can help me in the communication realm, by simply keeping it going. She seems very very very nice though.
I had my second herb class today. It was awesome yet again!
Burdock made me cough up phlegm and my stomach has not been the same.. which is unfortunate cause the root has many great things about it.
Eh I might have some type of Hypothyroid problem.
I am going to call a homeopath I heard of in town maybe tomorrow or Tuesday. I hope she is an MD too so I can get some deficiency levels tested... Other wise I will have to go into Eugene to see a MD homeopath , or see a "real" AMA doctor here in town.
Cougar always says that my thyroid comes up in Body Talk.... And I "feel like I have known"something is up with my thyroid. BUt who knows maybe its POSC or whatever that acronym is...for cervical cyst issues. THAT I do know I have had in past....
Maybe mum is right all the hundred things not working in me is from ONE major problem.
Finding that ONE thing will be fun. Oh yea... let me tell ya. =P
=(
Otherwise all is fine I guess...
Wed is Losar.
I put in an art piece at an art show and money (if someone buys it) will go towards a new skateboard bowl downtown. I woodburned a Psoas Muscle. It turned out simple yet awesome.
And my cousin Chris is moving to Korea tomorrow to teach, he has a visa and all.
Makes me happy for him, and sad for my own visa mishaps.
I was becoming friend with an old ex of mine that lives (also) in the UK but his girlfriend freaked out and got all gansgta on me. I decided it wasn't worth it.
I like James and wish best for him, and having to have HER as a girlfriend... good luck with that. She seems crazy. BUT his happiness is what matters... and its not like I can say my relationship is exactly the best. The whole ex psycho thing makes no sense to me though.
As I am friends with ex's. I had an ex live with me while I was dating Clinton. And then after Clint and I broke up Clint moved into my apt for a month so him and his Japan gf can be together while she was visiting, and I lived at Amber's, and it worked out- until his GF freaked out that him and i once dated... she also freaked I owned Jap. girl porn... that she found. Heh. That's funny. And when James and I dated I was also dating Clint.. and when James lived with me he was friends with all my friends, who were a few ex;s. So its crazy to have another girl be crazy.
BUT I get the whole feeling threatened thing too... like Bryce PURPOSELY attempting trying to get Chris to get sexy with him when I asked them not to hook up. BUT the thing is I AM NOT HOOKING UP WITH JAMES and never will again... not cause he is a bad guy we just don't match... so its weird she is all pissy. I guess it just bugs me because I have only been nice and respectful and good to her, and she was never nice, only brash and horrible with words to me. I don't deserve that. So best I walked away. But still when people are mean to me for no reason it stays inside me for a while. Til it finds some joint to make home in and rest and cause issues for years until its body talked outta me.
Well off to bed.
Also say your prayers, cause Amber got the MEASLES! And she is in Nepal.
So...
Om Mani Padme Hung Hri.
♥
He did not show.
He did not answer my calls that day.
I decided not to talk to him for a while... meaning no calls to the UK. No emails to him. No text messages. No facebook wall crap.
Nada.
Its probably going to kill me more then him.
And that also makes me question things.
I am horrible at answering my own questions though. And fear asking other people them. And when brought up to Chris seems hopeless...
On other news~
I start "training" at the child care center tomorrow. I also have a job interview (tomorrow too) that is for two nights a week at a rape and violence center for women. I hope I get the job. Not just for extra money, but to get my foot in the door... As far as inspirational work world goes- doing good for the community and all that.
I hope to lose weight as I will have to ride my bike all over for two jobs. Or even just for the one job.
I tried to make friendship with a girl today that is in transition, but now I am nervous about it, cause socially she is very delayed... and more awkward then me. Not sure if that's going to work... As if you have not noticed my friends generally tend to be people that can help me in the communication realm, by simply keeping it going. She seems very very very nice though.
I had my second herb class today. It was awesome yet again!
Burdock made me cough up phlegm and my stomach has not been the same.. which is unfortunate cause the root has many great things about it.
Eh I might have some type of Hypothyroid problem.
I am going to call a homeopath I heard of in town maybe tomorrow or Tuesday. I hope she is an MD too so I can get some deficiency levels tested... Other wise I will have to go into Eugene to see a MD homeopath , or see a "real" AMA doctor here in town.
Cougar always says that my thyroid comes up in Body Talk.... And I "feel like I have known"something is up with my thyroid. BUt who knows maybe its POSC or whatever that acronym is...for cervical cyst issues. THAT I do know I have had in past....
Maybe mum is right all the hundred things not working in me is from ONE major problem.
Finding that ONE thing will be fun. Oh yea... let me tell ya. =P
=(
Otherwise all is fine I guess...
Wed is Losar.
I put in an art piece at an art show and money (if someone buys it) will go towards a new skateboard bowl downtown. I woodburned a Psoas Muscle. It turned out simple yet awesome.
And my cousin Chris is moving to Korea tomorrow to teach, he has a visa and all.
Makes me happy for him, and sad for my own visa mishaps.
I was becoming friend with an old ex of mine that lives (also) in the UK but his girlfriend freaked out and got all gansgta on me. I decided it wasn't worth it.
I like James and wish best for him, and having to have HER as a girlfriend... good luck with that. She seems crazy. BUT his happiness is what matters... and its not like I can say my relationship is exactly the best. The whole ex psycho thing makes no sense to me though.
As I am friends with ex's. I had an ex live with me while I was dating Clinton. And then after Clint and I broke up Clint moved into my apt for a month so him and his Japan gf can be together while she was visiting, and I lived at Amber's, and it worked out- until his GF freaked out that him and i once dated... she also freaked I owned Jap. girl porn... that she found. Heh. That's funny. And when James and I dated I was also dating Clint.. and when James lived with me he was friends with all my friends, who were a few ex;s. So its crazy to have another girl be crazy.
BUT I get the whole feeling threatened thing too... like Bryce PURPOSELY attempting trying to get Chris to get sexy with him when I asked them not to hook up. BUT the thing is I AM NOT HOOKING UP WITH JAMES and never will again... not cause he is a bad guy we just don't match... so its weird she is all pissy. I guess it just bugs me because I have only been nice and respectful and good to her, and she was never nice, only brash and horrible with words to me. I don't deserve that. So best I walked away. But still when people are mean to me for no reason it stays inside me for a while. Til it finds some joint to make home in and rest and cause issues for years until its body talked outta me.
Well off to bed.
Also say your prayers, cause Amber got the MEASLES! And she is in Nepal.
So...
Om Mani Padme Hung Hri.
♥