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i despise christmas.
there's really not much more to say about it than that. i just really don't like christmas. everyone's off being happy and i can't help being jealous. why can't i be happy like them? instead, i'm at home, wasting my days away studying nothing and staring blankly ahead of me.
maybe it's because christmas is about spending time with your family and friends. the way i see it now, though, is that i have no family. and my "friends", whoever they are, are spending time with their family. and it doesn't help that i'm being deprived of living. i can't go out, i can't do anything except study. it's so stupid...
i have to go now...studying and cleaning and washing the dishes. whoop-dee-doo.