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love can be quite wondrous. but you have to know when to stay away and when you're allowed to embrace it.
now is the time to keep away. and there's nothing i can do about it. all i can do is to stay away and watch from a distance. things are alright now and i shouldn't try to promote anything. i can't rush it; there's nothing to rush. i'll just have to wait until he's gone and move on with my life. yes, that is what i will do. for if i do anything further, i will create a ruckus and the fine glass would be shattered...enough to be beyong repair.
i'm mostly rambling to myself, but i guess this is my way of being "open" with your people. if you can even call it that...maybe not. i ask myself about that last thought. am i really being open? how is it being open if i'm contraining myself to what i say so i don't give away the whole truth? is the quarter truth really truth at all? this is stupid. let's just leave it alone.
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I saw Tony again. Last night. He brought along his friend, Carter. I don't know how Carter died yet, but I guess it's not really my right to now. So whatever. But yeah, we just sat around for awhile. Carter is wicked scared of light so I had to turn my nightlife off. I was actually surprised when they came, I didn't know that Tony would come back. But he did. I don't know if he's planning on coming back again though. Maybe.
So yeah, we sat around; didn't really talk. But the silence said it all. I'm glad they came. It was the most beautiful silence I had ever heard.
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I'm into the Trans-Siberian Orchestra now. Anyone buy me a CD? :-) Christmas is near...just kidding.