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I'm leaving for Phoenix in a few days.. can't wait for the long drive there. Kent and I are going together, so it should be a pretty chill trip. He's never been that far west before, so I thought it was about time that he should! I'm going to try and drive in my truck again, let's hope all goes well this time. Last time I threw a rod in my engine and got stuck in the middle of the desert.. alone (in a town called Kent).
The plot congeals..
I'm not quite sure what exactly is happening here.. but there is so much being said about me. In relations to Rick, and in protection of Kent.. I'm not a bad person. As I've mentioned, I've made mistakes that I'm not too happy about.. but we do what we do, hopefully learn from it and move on.
Rick has chosen to completely cut me out of his life (for a while, I'm sure), to deal with the pain of this and that.. I can understand. It's rough on both of us.. losing each other completly. He was my best friend for 3 years. Every time we see each other, the comfortable arguments pick up as though the relationship never ended.. It needs to stop.
People/friends are fickle.
There was a time in my life where I talked too openly about myself.. sharing and being, I guess, too open. Which seemed to get me in a lot of trouble.. so I chose the other path, and decided that I wouldn't share and be open with my life.. which apparently is also the wrong thing to do. It leaves people open to their own interpertation. I've also been told that "your friends don't want to hear "your drama" (from Rick), so why talk about it. Where is the fine balance here?
I hate rumors, I hate gossip, I hate drama.. I don't like being in the "he said, she said" game..
I seem to be in the middle of that type of game right now.. because I confided a secret in a friend and one thing leads to another and the ball just rolls.. So this is why I have so little faith in opening up to people.
If there are any miscommunications or questions about what I do or who I am and you think it's your business to know? Please come directly to me. Otherwise, don't pass judgment on what you don't know.
The plot congeals..
I'm not quite sure what exactly is happening here.. but there is so much being said about me. In relations to Rick, and in protection of Kent.. I'm not a bad person. As I've mentioned, I've made mistakes that I'm not too happy about.. but we do what we do, hopefully learn from it and move on.
Rick has chosen to completely cut me out of his life (for a while, I'm sure), to deal with the pain of this and that.. I can understand. It's rough on both of us.. losing each other completly. He was my best friend for 3 years. Every time we see each other, the comfortable arguments pick up as though the relationship never ended.. It needs to stop.
People/friends are fickle.
There was a time in my life where I talked too openly about myself.. sharing and being, I guess, too open. Which seemed to get me in a lot of trouble.. so I chose the other path, and decided that I wouldn't share and be open with my life.. which apparently is also the wrong thing to do. It leaves people open to their own interpertation. I've also been told that "your friends don't want to hear "your drama" (from Rick), so why talk about it. Where is the fine balance here?
I hate rumors, I hate gossip, I hate drama.. I don't like being in the "he said, she said" game..
I seem to be in the middle of that type of game right now.. because I confided a secret in a friend and one thing leads to another and the ball just rolls.. So this is why I have so little faith in opening up to people.
If there are any miscommunications or questions about what I do or who I am and you think it's your business to know? Please come directly to me. Otherwise, don't pass judgment on what you don't know.