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Bi Underground was really good last night. Really good. However, I need to write about the not good bit to get it out of my system. I was at the bar about to order a pint and [nice bi person] told me not to worry, that people don't bite. I said to him that I'm not scared of actually scary people, I'm scared of friendly people. (Over-simplification, but you know, it was a pub meet not my shrink's office.) The woman he was taking to said 'I'm friendly', and sought to invade my personal space... I took a step back quickly. She repeated the action, as did I mine, and then she pronounced me 'interesting'. *Shudder*. What an interesting specimen I am! How about people figure out what panics me and keep winding me up to get a reaction? Because we should all act like school bullies, oh yeah. Luckily I had the 'non-neurotypical corner' to retreat to.
FFS! My neuroses are NOT there for your personal entertainment!!!
sermoa was there and we managed to catch up before it got busy and noisy. Then artremis came over and I felt comfortable to take my travel teddy and my knitting out, which helped me with my anxiety later. Ah, some people are lovely. I didn't manage to talk to everyone I wanted to because it was rather packed at points, but had a nice little chat with matthewp and Lydia (lj not known to me yet) at the end of the evening.
Generally I was a lot less anxious than I am most of the time. So, win. I think I'm going to take my knitting to the Dev sometime, I miss going there (now foibey and I have broken up I don't really have someone to go with regularly). I like the Dev. Its goth cheesiness is sublime, and the music is good (though too loud for me in the evening). Of course, the beer leaves a lot to be desired, but having the bar staff draw scorpions, spiders, pagan symbols etc in the Guiness head is fun.
FFS! My neuroses are NOT there for your personal entertainment!!!
sermoa was there and we managed to catch up before it got busy and noisy. Then artremis came over and I felt comfortable to take my travel teddy and my knitting out, which helped me with my anxiety later. Ah, some people are lovely. I didn't manage to talk to everyone I wanted to because it was rather packed at points, but had a nice little chat with matthewp and Lydia (lj not known to me yet) at the end of the evening.
Generally I was a lot less anxious than I am most of the time. So, win. I think I'm going to take my knitting to the Dev sometime, I miss going there (now foibey and I have broken up I don't really have someone to go with regularly). I like the Dev. Its goth cheesiness is sublime, and the music is good (though too loud for me in the evening). Of course, the beer leaves a lot to be desired, but having the bar staff draw scorpions, spiders, pagan symbols etc in the Guiness head is fun.