Nov 06, 2006 09:03
I cry too much. I think I've decided that. I could blame it on hormones, but I think that only works about 1 week a month...lol
It's weird...I sometimes find comfort in crying. And I'm not talking about those little "pretend I'm not crying" cries...I'm talking about the full on sob. Is it just me? I mean...it ALWAYS makes me feel better to cry like that. Even for no reason whatsoever....
Although lately, I feel like I'm making up reasons to cry. Maybe I am purposely evoking sadness into my life. I doubt I want people to feel sorry for me...in fact, I HATE it when people feel sorry for me. Mostly because I wish I didn't have anything going on about which they would have reason to feel sorry for me. Maybe that's what is...it's strange. I understand that sometimes we just all need a good cry, but this is getting ridiculous.
Not sure what to do here....It's almost like it's difficult to get up in the morning. Not in an "I'm ridiculously depressed" sort of way...I don't think anyway. More like I'm getting to the point where I've made so many mistakes I'm afraid to journey into another day for fear of making more, or worse, the same ones again. Maybe this happens to everyone at some point? *shrug* Chances are though...it's probably just me...