I'm paving the road to hell...
I feel like a failure....how's that for an opening line?
I always want to do anything and everything and be the best at it and everytime I set myself up for disappointment. Who knew optimism could be a really bad thing?
For the second time in my life, I'm at a very important crossroad. The only difference is, this time I know what I want. But can I get to it...?
Someone once told me, "Anything worth obtaining is always difficult to grasp, you just have to keep reaching for it, emotionally and physically."
This is worth EVERYTHING to me...and I'm so afraid I'm going to let him down. :-( I said the other day that I want a clean slate, and that I'm going to make it happen...except now that I know that my optimism is often a bad thing...I'm so afraid I won't be able to do it. And then what? I'm not sure I could handle the disappointment that would inevitably come out of my repeated failure.
I've failed once before...that's why I'm here, at school. I promised myself I wouldn't let it happen again...Road to hell, right?
So where do I start???
Back at square one I guess....and then I cross my fingers and hope that everything I know and everything I've done will get to me to where I want and need to be.
I always want to do anything and everything and be the best at it and everytime I set myself up for disappointment. Who knew optimism could be a really bad thing?
For the second time in my life, I'm at a very important crossroad. The only difference is, this time I know what I want. But can I get to it...?
Someone once told me, "Anything worth obtaining is always difficult to grasp, you just have to keep reaching for it, emotionally and physically."
This is worth EVERYTHING to me...and I'm so afraid I'm going to let him down. :-( I said the other day that I want a clean slate, and that I'm going to make it happen...except now that I know that my optimism is often a bad thing...I'm so afraid I won't be able to do it. And then what? I'm not sure I could handle the disappointment that would inevitably come out of my repeated failure.
I've failed once before...that's why I'm here, at school. I promised myself I wouldn't let it happen again...Road to hell, right?
So where do I start???
Back at square one I guess....and then I cross my fingers and hope that everything I know and everything I've done will get to me to where I want and need to be.