Sep 21, 2009 05:18
[12:37am - Twelve Hours Later]
Cerylidae: Hey hey! Hope the gamenight went well :]
Me: It was good.
Cerylidae: Great! People showed up on time and such?
Me: Yes, actually.
Cerylidae: Awesome!
Me: To my surprise, all those who said "I may come late" never showed at all. It was the same group from 4pm to midnight, all except one person who left at 8pm and one person who showed at 5pm.
Cerylidae: Good amount of people?
Me: Yes, actually.
Cerylidae: Awesome!
Me: I was worried about being over filled, but since none of the "late comers" came at all, we all fit perfectly. I had expected to set up a third table in my kitchen. But there turned out to be no need.
Cerylidae: Good times, good times.
Me: Hedgehog, whom you are very much like, came early to bake with me.
Cerylidae: He has a rabbit and flowery field fetish, too?!
Me: We made two pies and a pandowdy (a cake with berries on the bottom). An apple pie, a blueberry pie, and a blueberry pandowdy.
Cerylidae: Wow, impressive
Me: All organic. With no white flour, no white sugar, and no gluten... Hedgehog is very much like you, as in, he's very liberal without being as extreme as I am. I'm guessing you'd both see perfectly eye to eye on religious / spiritual / scientific subjects.
Cerylidae: Oh, I'm not liberal at all.
Me: He's a math major and is taking several foreign languages at UB. He's sort of techy, and sort of dorky, but like you, he doesn't have any of the less pleasant qualities that come with those stereotypes. And like you, he has a good sense of humor. He's also a "good boy" - as in, he's still a virgin, and not because he couldn't get any.
A while back I had a huge thing for him, but I was still with Porcupine at the time, and while things were falling apart with Porcupine, I wasn't ready to let go, much less for a guy who showed little to no romantic interest in me. And then he ended up with Pony, whose a much better match for him.
Cerylidae: Well that's nice. Is he still with her?
Me: And Pony, is now my best female friend, so it's all for the best really. Yes, they'll be a year in February. They met last November.
Cerylidae: That's great!
Me: It was actually discovering that they were dating that made me leave Porcupine on March 1st - a huge part of it anyway. I was already really feeling like it had to end, but I felt like I was missing out when Hedgehog and Ash started going out. It seemed like they were both "winning" by getting each other, and like I was "losing" because I was staying in a relationship that was rotting.
Cerylidae: I could see it making you realize that you don't have to be in something miserable just for the sake of having something
Me: Yep. Of course, looking back on it, it was rash. I still wasn't ready yet. I probably wouldn't have been so emotionally fucked for all of March and April if I hadn't have left so abruptly. I mean, one week I was still considering the long haul, and the next week I had this huge epifany and decided I was really done with the bull shit. If I had took more time to really, really, really think about it, I still would have left, but would have been much more sure of the decision. But, anyway...
I hope Ash can make it next game night. I miss her. She's been so busy with school. And honestly, now, I enjoy her company to Hedgehog's. She's more understanding, and once you get her going, she's more talkative.
Cerylidae: That's a winning situation, then
Me: And she's so darn cute that just watching her facial expressions as she talks is like plenty of amusement in itself. Much like my niece, who was here today. My half brother's daughter. She's about to turn fourteen.
I have so much respect for her now. At fourteen I was doing drugs, hanging out with losers, fucking a drug dealer... God I was a mess. And she's all like "I'm not going to lose my virginity until I'm 18 and in love, or married" and "drugs are gross and stupid -- one of my friends started doing that stuff and she's not my friend anymore" and "I like my new boyfriend, he treats me like a gentleman instead of trying to be slick." It's just so adorable listening to her talk.
Cerylidae: aww
Me: Two years ago she was a know-it-all brat with horrible mood swings, but now she's really awesome.
Cerylidae: Wow, interesting shift. I wonder what caused it.
Me: She's finally mature enough that I can really hold a conversation with her. Her puberty passed, that's what. And she listens to my advice and respects me now too, so that helps. And since my brother drives me mad, and as her father, he drives her mad, we can both team up on him constantly.
Cerylidae: That's a good team member!
Me: Indeed. I'm really actually amazed at how bright is really is. Modern culture has stuffed her head with so many bad ideas, and false pretenses, but when given the facts, she can come to logical conclusions, which two years ago, I believed she never would. I expected her continue to be a bratty snob forever, really.
Part of it also has to do with her rebellion against her mother. Her mother and her have stopped getting along to the point where they are screaming at each other constantly, and her father does a lot of things (pot, cigarettes, beer, video games and porn in most of his free time) that nobody condones, so she's now looking to make her own choices, and listen to outside sources, so I'm guessing that must have a lot to do with it.
Cerylidae: Trying to be different from that, makes sense
Me: Since her mother is sort of a mainstream-prep whose gotten older and fattened up a bit as her motalbolism slowed down and her eating habits didn't improve. And her father is sort of a has-been, or a never-been as the case may be. Her half brother is sort of a dope as well (who I gave up on years ago). So that leaves me, and my mother and father for her to look up to instead, and I think my mom and I are a bit more impressive as humans.
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