An Old Song for A New Perspective
This is a personal post. A first for this LJ, if I'm not mistaken. A few weeks back, I cleaned my iTunes and re-uploaded all of the audio I have on my hard drive. I wanted to have the opportunity to listen to all of the songs, so I placed it on shuffle and played everything. The result is fascinating. I reacquainted myself with some of my favorites, discovered songs I never knew I had, and every now and then get to listen to a part of an audiobook.
It's fascinating how a song can translate so much emotion. I have used music too many times to explain things I could not verbalize. Interestingly, my love affair with music has never been limited to a language I understand.
I've always been a JPop fan. Something a lot of my friends don't get, and neither do I try to explain. Not everything will make sense to others even if you explain it. Watching JDorama and anime, when I was younger, also influenced the music I listen from this country. Which leads me, really, to what I want to talk about.
I was obsessed with the anime Card Captor Sakura. I can't even say that I got over it, because it's still near and dear to me. Sakura for me, is what Hello Kitty is for some people. I have a little collection of CCS merchandise. I even have the entire anime on original DVD. Yes. I got both seasons and the movies on original DVD. An honor I cannot bestow on other things I have obsessed about. Which brings me to it's music. On the first movie, the ending song really struck me. The song is called Tooi Kono Machi De by Kaiya Naomi. The title loosely translates to "In This Distant Town". I remember listening to it as the final scene draws to a close and the credits started rolling. It talks about facing challenges despite getting confused. It played today, and I was struck by how it probably makes more sense to me now. How a song that's supposed to depict the struggles of a grade school girl apply to me now baffles me. But make sense to me, it does.
I used to like that song
from an old tape
with small scratches and a faded title
Dawn comes
It's interesting that the first lyrics of the song talks about like a song from an old tape. Deja vu, if you may. I have been feeling quite amiss about things the last few months. There's a vague discontent. I've tried several times to identify what it is that doesn't fit, so I can address it. I have failed to put a finger to it every time. It came to a point that I would sometimes cry for no reason at all. Mind you, I have never been the crying type. Until recently, I guess. I felt absurd and stupid, and very much like I was bi-polar. I disliked feeling it very much because at my age, I should be able to take control of things in my life. Unfortunately, no one told me that being an adult is a lot more complicated than it sounds like. If anything else, it feels worse. You do not have the luxury of screwing it up, because you're no longer young. A juvenile could get away with a lot of things. An adult can only wish so. So, if you're young (I mean young, as in someone who's job description is a student), I give you this heads up now. Whatever shit you have right now, means nothing to what you're going to face in the future. That's probably not consoling, but at least someone told you to get your bearings ready.
And the day starts
Bringing the summer air
I bring myself to be used to this sudden loneliness
from my everyday life
Anyway, the song's melody is a pick-me-upper. It's the kind of tune you want to listen to when you wake up in the morning. It makes you feel good about getting up. Understanding the lyrics, it makes you feel like you can take on the world. Yes. No matter how vague everything seems. It may feel like the world is conspiring against you, and all that you're left with is a bunch of crossroads. Which basically doesn't make things easier because it just adds to everything that confuses you. What the hell, anyway. You just move on.
Where ever I ride my bike
I won’t forget how fast the wind goes
lalalala Let’s sing as we look up to the sky
lalalala It’s my life keep on walking forward
I’ll go forward with my own strength on this never ending road
I guess, what I'm trying to say is that no matter how discouraging things can get, all you can do is move forward. The world really doesn't stop spinning for you. Even if you stop, the rest of the world will move forward. And eventually, you will too. You can never remain standing still. At one point or another, you push on that pedal to move forward. Listening to it has made me feel so much better about myself and where I am. It doesn't solve it, whatever that unknown vague thing is. But it does make it a little easier to bear.
It's fascinating how a song can translate so much emotion. I have used music too many times to explain things I could not verbalize. Interestingly, my love affair with music has never been limited to a language I understand.
I've always been a JPop fan. Something a lot of my friends don't get, and neither do I try to explain. Not everything will make sense to others even if you explain it. Watching JDorama and anime, when I was younger, also influenced the music I listen from this country. Which leads me, really, to what I want to talk about.
I was obsessed with the anime Card Captor Sakura. I can't even say that I got over it, because it's still near and dear to me. Sakura for me, is what Hello Kitty is for some people. I have a little collection of CCS merchandise. I even have the entire anime on original DVD. Yes. I got both seasons and the movies on original DVD. An honor I cannot bestow on other things I have obsessed about. Which brings me to it's music. On the first movie, the ending song really struck me. The song is called Tooi Kono Machi De by Kaiya Naomi. The title loosely translates to "In This Distant Town". I remember listening to it as the final scene draws to a close and the credits started rolling. It talks about facing challenges despite getting confused. It played today, and I was struck by how it probably makes more sense to me now. How a song that's supposed to depict the struggles of a grade school girl apply to me now baffles me. But make sense to me, it does.
I used to like that song
from an old tape
with small scratches and a faded title
Dawn comes
It's interesting that the first lyrics of the song talks about like a song from an old tape. Deja vu, if you may. I have been feeling quite amiss about things the last few months. There's a vague discontent. I've tried several times to identify what it is that doesn't fit, so I can address it. I have failed to put a finger to it every time. It came to a point that I would sometimes cry for no reason at all. Mind you, I have never been the crying type. Until recently, I guess. I felt absurd and stupid, and very much like I was bi-polar. I disliked feeling it very much because at my age, I should be able to take control of things in my life. Unfortunately, no one told me that being an adult is a lot more complicated than it sounds like. If anything else, it feels worse. You do not have the luxury of screwing it up, because you're no longer young. A juvenile could get away with a lot of things. An adult can only wish so. So, if you're young (I mean young, as in someone who's job description is a student), I give you this heads up now. Whatever shit you have right now, means nothing to what you're going to face in the future. That's probably not consoling, but at least someone told you to get your bearings ready.
And the day starts
Bringing the summer air
I bring myself to be used to this sudden loneliness
from my everyday life
Anyway, the song's melody is a pick-me-upper. It's the kind of tune you want to listen to when you wake up in the morning. It makes you feel good about getting up. Understanding the lyrics, it makes you feel like you can take on the world. Yes. No matter how vague everything seems. It may feel like the world is conspiring against you, and all that you're left with is a bunch of crossroads. Which basically doesn't make things easier because it just adds to everything that confuses you. What the hell, anyway. You just move on.
Where ever I ride my bike
I won’t forget how fast the wind goes
lalalala Let’s sing as we look up to the sky
lalalala It’s my life keep on walking forward
I’ll go forward with my own strength on this never ending road
I guess, what I'm trying to say is that no matter how discouraging things can get, all you can do is move forward. The world really doesn't stop spinning for you. Even if you stop, the rest of the world will move forward. And eventually, you will too. You can never remain standing still. At one point or another, you push on that pedal to move forward. Listening to it has made me feel so much better about myself and where I am. It doesn't solve it, whatever that unknown vague thing is. But it does make it a little easier to bear.