"If I weren't in such a hurry, I'd break right down and cry!"
Slowly but surely, my health continues to decline. At times, I feel as if I were in Death's Waiting Room just holding out until my number is called. That probably sounds silly, but it's apropos of my life right now.
Everyone that I confide in usually has the same response: Can't your doctors do anything to help? Well, it appears not. I do admit that I've fallen into the laissez-faire approach to medicine that so many support staffers here in Oregon seem to have. But I'm going to once again start to push the envelope. During a recent blood draw, I lit into the PD nurse about a number of issues - chiefly, that it's time to say "fuck it" if one approach in my medical treatment runs afoul of preset notions regarding what's appropriate. I'd previously started using Ensure Max to boost my protein levels and achieved some initial positive results. But my nephrologist took me off the drink because it contained too much phosphorus. Well, fuck that. I need to start feeling better if I'm going to have the proper attitude about improving my overall health.
I'm not even sure it's possible at this point to improve. I suspect I've reached a certain Point of No Return, but I'm still in there, fighting. For now.
Now for Another Hot Guy.
Everyone that I confide in usually has the same response: Can't your doctors do anything to help? Well, it appears not. I do admit that I've fallen into the laissez-faire approach to medicine that so many support staffers here in Oregon seem to have. But I'm going to once again start to push the envelope. During a recent blood draw, I lit into the PD nurse about a number of issues - chiefly, that it's time to say "fuck it" if one approach in my medical treatment runs afoul of preset notions regarding what's appropriate. I'd previously started using Ensure Max to boost my protein levels and achieved some initial positive results. But my nephrologist took me off the drink because it contained too much phosphorus. Well, fuck that. I need to start feeling better if I'm going to have the proper attitude about improving my overall health.
I'm not even sure it's possible at this point to improve. I suspect I've reached a certain Point of No Return, but I'm still in there, fighting. For now.
Now for Another Hot Guy.