And So Falls Another Empire
So even after all I had been through and all the support I was offering for her own mistake, I'm still tossed aside. She said she doesn't feel for me anymore. That may be true, but I know deep down there must be something she isn't saying. You don't have someone shamelessly devoted to you and then you just throw them away.. It's just not possible. I know I'll pull through this all, but it literally is the most I have ever been through (except maybe that summer of hell). I'm glad I have friends who have been taking the time to listen though, I think without them, I'd be even more of a wreck. As I always say, in your times of hardship, your true friends will reveal themselves. Maybe that's why I seek out people who have problems, so that I can prove to them I'm worthy of being a friend.
Before I walked over there, I prayed. And yeah, I pray every night, but this was much more heartfelt than normal. I told God that I have been through hell, but he has been there with me, and that my true form of worship was loving people more than what is considered "normal". Everyone is given certain gifts and mine is just that.. Giving myself completely to others. I told Him that I'd be fine with the path he put me on, I'd accept it, no matter how difficult it may be. I'm not an overly religious person, so this was just... different for me. But it was right, or at least felt so.
All my bad moments feel as though they are part of a movie, and all the good ones part of a dream. Yet my dreams have all turned sour so I suppose it's best to keep the cameras rolling..
Before I walked over there, I prayed. And yeah, I pray every night, but this was much more heartfelt than normal. I told God that I have been through hell, but he has been there with me, and that my true form of worship was loving people more than what is considered "normal". Everyone is given certain gifts and mine is just that.. Giving myself completely to others. I told Him that I'd be fine with the path he put me on, I'd accept it, no matter how difficult it may be. I'm not an overly religious person, so this was just... different for me. But it was right, or at least felt so.
All my bad moments feel as though they are part of a movie, and all the good ones part of a dream. Yet my dreams have all turned sour so I suppose it's best to keep the cameras rolling..