ugh. well I got sick today, I threw up for the first time in 5 years and 3 months. yeah I remember every time I got sick. that's one of the perks of emetophobia. woo ( Read more... )

I've been thinking about accommodations and disability and school today. Most of the people reading this blog know that I have a LOT of trouble with school--I always have, or at least, I have ever since I started getting a certain amount of homework. (Before then, though, I had problems paying attention in class, so.) Since then, I've had major ( Read more... )

I feel much better since my last post. The kittens are sleeping more, I've been taking care of myself more, and I'm no longer feeling anxious and overwhelmed all the time. I'm glad. I had an anxious couple of days, I got through it, and I was able to keep taking care of the kittens. A good thing to keep in mind next time I feel like that ( Read more... )

I hit the breaking point last night when it comes to the kittens. I was trying to sleep, and they were making so much noise, and I couldn't sleep and I felt like my room wasn't mine anymore because they were always in it and I have to keep the door closed in order to let them run around and THEY ALWAYS WANT TO RUN AROUND. I felt trapped and couldn' ( Read more... )

We took Hypatia to her first visit with her new vet today! We had been putting off taking her back to the old vet for her rabies and distemper vaccine updates, because we didn't really like the old vet. The doctor was fine, but the clinic itself wasn't great about communicating with us when we took her to get spayed ( Read more... )

^That'll be my new country song. I will invent a whole genre of psychiatric medication blues ( Read more... )

 A lot of background anxiety coming up the past few days. Images in my mind, nausea, abandonment, the things I love turning against me like that dumb clown jack-in-the-box in Prisoner of Azkaban (movie). the moment it turns scary, which doesn't take very long at all actually. a feeling that I am being chased.

I think it is because I am making ( Read more... )