I'd be lying if I said that I didn't miss people and the way things used to be.
I'd be lying if I said that I didn't have FSU plans plastered against my throat.
I'd be lying if I said things were perfect.
Maybe silence is worse.

To wear a disguise is to tell a lie. Soon, life is a masquerade.

Kevin called me.
Sabrina left bruises.
They put in insane amounts of effort.
I didn't make time for him.

I miss the past, but I have no idea who I am anymore. And we will always be the same, no matter how hard we try to change.

"The difference between him and I is that I will tell you that none of that - the college, the distance, the fights - none of that matters to me because you're still what I want, but I guess that's just never going to be enough."

Things are changing, and I'm not sorry for that. Right now, though, I'm okay. I'm really just okay.

I wore the dress today, and everyone loved it.

Kai and I still aren't technically back together, We're better, but I don't think we're actually right for eachother... which makes me think that maybe we shouldn't get back together at all.

Pierce and I have plans to hang out, which is awesome because despite the fact that we both know more about one ( Read more... )

The past few days have been relatively different from the norm, so here they are in brief:
1. Saw Kevin for the first time since before we started dating in 2006. It was awkward and I didn't talk a lot but maybe that went unnoticed.
2. Took an exam that I didn't need to and plan on doing that two more times before the end of the day today.
3. Had two ( Read more... )

 AP exams are well underway. I've already trudged through Calculus and Computer Programming, but I've still got US History, Biology, and English to go. It's a headache and I'll be the first to admit that I probably did it to myself. I should have used those review books earlier and actually worked through the practice exams and comprehensive ( Read more... )

 Last night was horrible and excellent all at once, and it was magnificent.

Originally, I had planned on perhaps going out to lunch with the group and him and then going home and working on my case for the debate. That isn't exactly how everything went down. Things got canceled and changed and Marcus hasn't really been out and about much since the ( Read more... )

It was the smallest of details that sent this whole thing into motion. It was asking for a change of assignment in a class that I hated and it all ended like this... which is crazy and bizarre and wonderful all at the same time.

People are going to get hurt. People already are... and I guess it's hard sometimes to keep moving forward when I know ( Read more... )

School is still here and I hate it; I am still here and I hate it.

The days continue to pass in what seems to be the slowest of fashions.

Prom did everything but provide a much-needed escape from the everyday. The punch was good, the dancefloor was wet, and the company was a sad excuse for a group of best friends. My date gave me a beautiful corsage ( Read more... )

This looked nice, as I've been considering doing one for a while anyways. Plus, Chloe tagged me and I figure that I owe her at least this much... and probably a lot more. Anyways, I'll try to make these somewhat not well known.

Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 random things, facts, goals, or habits about yourself. At the ( Read more... )