NOT wavering
why are moods so much like a roller coaster? why do i get so irritated? I definitely noticed a difference in my demeanor today.. significant i say. got mad about some pretty miniscule stuff as usual but was able to handle it differently-no thanks to me, all to Him. Yea!
sadness took over as i learned that gramps was having another bad day~ confused again. the spells are getting closer together and now grams said they won't be able to cook anymore so they are looking into assisted living facilities. i love them so much. it seriously breaks my heart in half. :( i actually had a conversation w/ grams about playing a song for gramps' funeral. nothing that anyone ever should have to talk about. wasn't a pleasant convo, but i told her i thought i'd be fine playing. she figured i wouldn't.. but as i've determined now that i will be, i plan on it. broad shoulders.. i think i can, i think i can, i think i can. (intrinsic motivation-thank you psych 150). blah blibitty blah.
we had two snow days. spent QT time with shane. he is great fun. we talked about weddings and he said whenever he had his that i could be his best man. haha. that's not breaking any traditions. made me smile. also talked about the love for gnarls barkley and that ridiculous song, crazy. good times. funny how fast time goes by when i'm with him. scary how much we think alike and react alike. gave him a very small speech on letting up on hannah. he irritates her to no end, and the poor girl is trying to "get over him." she like(d/s) him and he led her on a bit to long. now i get to here her side and his and get to try to be neutral and not make a liar out of myself. i explained to both that i am a removed observer. i don't want to be anywhere near their little petty "stuff" -for lack of a better word. hannah also tends to get extremely jealous of me b/c of the time i spend with shane. i just avoid convos where she would know i was with him.. while he volunteers the information readily just to make her mad. lol.. i should not laugh. so, this is why he got some constructive critism on letting up on the poor girl. she doesn't take his harasment well.
i have irritation about situations. i am not the person i should be-yet. i am growing, i am improving. no thanks to myself. i am blessed. i am loved. i have been given amazing grace. i need so much more help. i will perservere.
"Hold fast the profession of your faith without WAVERING for He is faithful that promised."
-Heb. 10:23 KJV
Do you understand? Hold on to what you believe and don't give it up. Not at all, never let go... God will be faithful, He promised it. If we can't trust the creator to keep a promise, whom can we trust? Therefore, as layed out by the verse- I am holding fast, not wavering, and waiting because.. HE promised. What else do I need??? What else do you need??? ~JLP
til later.
sadness took over as i learned that gramps was having another bad day~ confused again. the spells are getting closer together and now grams said they won't be able to cook anymore so they are looking into assisted living facilities. i love them so much. it seriously breaks my heart in half. :( i actually had a conversation w/ grams about playing a song for gramps' funeral. nothing that anyone ever should have to talk about. wasn't a pleasant convo, but i told her i thought i'd be fine playing. she figured i wouldn't.. but as i've determined now that i will be, i plan on it. broad shoulders.. i think i can, i think i can, i think i can. (intrinsic motivation-thank you psych 150). blah blibitty blah.
we had two snow days. spent QT time with shane. he is great fun. we talked about weddings and he said whenever he had his that i could be his best man. haha. that's not breaking any traditions. made me smile. also talked about the love for gnarls barkley and that ridiculous song, crazy. good times. funny how fast time goes by when i'm with him. scary how much we think alike and react alike. gave him a very small speech on letting up on hannah. he irritates her to no end, and the poor girl is trying to "get over him." she like(d/s) him and he led her on a bit to long. now i get to here her side and his and get to try to be neutral and not make a liar out of myself. i explained to both that i am a removed observer. i don't want to be anywhere near their little petty "stuff" -for lack of a better word. hannah also tends to get extremely jealous of me b/c of the time i spend with shane. i just avoid convos where she would know i was with him.. while he volunteers the information readily just to make her mad. lol.. i should not laugh. so, this is why he got some constructive critism on letting up on the poor girl. she doesn't take his harasment well.
i have irritation about situations. i am not the person i should be-yet. i am growing, i am improving. no thanks to myself. i am blessed. i am loved. i have been given amazing grace. i need so much more help. i will perservere.
"Hold fast the profession of your faith without WAVERING for He is faithful that promised."
-Heb. 10:23 KJV
Do you understand? Hold on to what you believe and don't give it up. Not at all, never let go... God will be faithful, He promised it. If we can't trust the creator to keep a promise, whom can we trust? Therefore, as layed out by the verse- I am holding fast, not wavering, and waiting because.. HE promised. What else do I need??? What else do you need??? ~JLP
til later.