general update + rant
Ive worked out that if i have most of my water intake in the morning than by the time to purge comes around i dont get nausea. I do have medication for when i feel sick but i dont like to have to use it. Calories are still in the 600s. Need to lower that at some stage.
I dont know my weight but ive been wondering since yesterday....i know im in the 40s (kgs) but not exactly. I havent weighed in a year or too....the number terrifies me. It will never be low enough. I really want to beat my lowest which was 39kgs but i know my dr and my psych has said shes not going to let me get that low. (The bet is SO on!)
Trying to make myself read more lately too. I love books so its easy to do. I have atleast 600 i own that i need to read. Im only through about 170 of them. Lock me up with books and coffee and no humans and im in heaven. I swear im so over living on earth. Humans suck!! (with the exception of a few...my psych and dr to begin with)
Xoxo rach
I dont know my weight but ive been wondering since yesterday....i know im in the 40s (kgs) but not exactly. I havent weighed in a year or too....the number terrifies me. It will never be low enough. I really want to beat my lowest which was 39kgs but i know my dr and my psych has said shes not going to let me get that low. (The bet is SO on!)
Trying to make myself read more lately too. I love books so its easy to do. I have atleast 600 i own that i need to read. Im only through about 170 of them. Lock me up with books and coffee and no humans and im in heaven. I swear im so over living on earth. Humans suck!! (with the exception of a few...my psych and dr to begin with)
Xoxo rach