...and years later shes back.
Good god its been a long time!! It feels like 10 years have passed. Or have i aged 10 years...???
Why am i back here?? Feel like it i guess.
I still have an ed. Anorexia is my life 24/7 now. I usually have to see my doctor (who is still Karen and still as wonderful as ever!!) twice a wk. Tho this past month its fortnightly because of agoraphobia. I was recently hospitalized because i started having seizures due to starvation and was told i had less than a wk to live. 2 months in hospital...total hell! I was too sick for private eating disorder clinics so i had to go into medical. I do see now that it was necessary as the refeeding syndrome i went thru started to send me back towards having another heart attack. Just a note...nasal tubes hurt like hell!!!
I still have tiny random binges but they last maybe a few days to a week and only on what would equal a bowl of cereal.
I was placed into Brisbanes Royal Womans Hospital on the Ed ward. One of my fav nurses said that i was one of the worst laxative abuse cases shes ever seen and thats saying ALOT!! I may need surgery but have an appt with the gastro clinic within the next few months to see just how bad the damage is.
Current weight?? I dont know. I do know that i gained 16kgs in hospital but no way in hell was i going to keep myself at the high end of underweight. Ive now lost it all. (Thank god!)
When i came out of hospital i had karen check a lump on my back - turns out i had skin cancer. But she got rid of it all so just need checks now on it. I have a scar on my back now but i dont mind. I'll just tell people karen attacked me 😊.
I have the BEST psychologist now. Wont say names but shes amazing. With her help i found out that ive actually had an ed since i was 6. Im now 30...
Im...i dont know. I keep to myself. Im not much of a fan of people. I much prefer to be alone. I still talk to Sarah who i meet on here like a hundred years ago. Gotta love her.
I think thats enough for now...
Xoxo rachel.
Why am i back here?? Feel like it i guess.
I still have an ed. Anorexia is my life 24/7 now. I usually have to see my doctor (who is still Karen and still as wonderful as ever!!) twice a wk. Tho this past month its fortnightly because of agoraphobia. I was recently hospitalized because i started having seizures due to starvation and was told i had less than a wk to live. 2 months in hospital...total hell! I was too sick for private eating disorder clinics so i had to go into medical. I do see now that it was necessary as the refeeding syndrome i went thru started to send me back towards having another heart attack. Just a note...nasal tubes hurt like hell!!!
I still have tiny random binges but they last maybe a few days to a week and only on what would equal a bowl of cereal.
I was placed into Brisbanes Royal Womans Hospital on the Ed ward. One of my fav nurses said that i was one of the worst laxative abuse cases shes ever seen and thats saying ALOT!! I may need surgery but have an appt with the gastro clinic within the next few months to see just how bad the damage is.
Current weight?? I dont know. I do know that i gained 16kgs in hospital but no way in hell was i going to keep myself at the high end of underweight. Ive now lost it all. (Thank god!)
When i came out of hospital i had karen check a lump on my back - turns out i had skin cancer. But she got rid of it all so just need checks now on it. I have a scar on my back now but i dont mind. I'll just tell people karen attacked me 😊.
I have the BEST psychologist now. Wont say names but shes amazing. With her help i found out that ive actually had an ed since i was 6. Im now 30...
Im...i dont know. I keep to myself. Im not much of a fan of people. I much prefer to be alone. I still talk to Sarah who i meet on here like a hundred years ago. Gotta love her.
I think thats enough for now...
Xoxo rachel.