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[nocturnaleye]

when i was four years old
they tried to test my i.q.
they showed me a picture
of 3 oranges and a pear
they said,
which one is different?
it does not belong
they taught me different is wrong...

~from "My IQ" by Ani DiFranco

Dear Clothing Manufacturers,

Do you think it would be possible to produce a line of clothing for women who are both fat and

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[scary_kisses]

you.
are.
amazing.

[nocturnaleye]

Thanks! :)

I just need to learn how to make my own clothes.

[scary_kisses]

we should do a stich-n-bitch, sometime. i've got a really nice sewing machine (that needs to be fixed, but will be ASAP) and a bunch of patterns and things, i think it would be fun to get a group of us together and create!

[nocturnaleye]

I think I've talked to a few people about this kind of thing for a while now. I think I need to start organizing something myself.

[shocktrama]

I actually think I had a line or two from that song written on the walls of my room in my mom's house in high school.

And love yourself, because enough other people already love you, so you must be deserving of it.

[nocturnaleye]

It was the last thing I heard in my car when I got home this evening and I was struck by how well it seemed to go with what I was thinking.

[shocktrama]

I love when that happens. When something you're listening to just fits that moment perfectly.

[not_one_of_us]

This was incredibly poignant. One of the defining moments that made me realize it was time to do something about my own weight was spending an entire day at the mall looking for jeans that fit and coming up empty-handed except for a single pair of "granny" jeans. Everything that would have fit my waist wouldn't make it past my knees because the legs were too skinny. Everything that fit my hips assumed that I my waist was 10 inches bigger. People gain weight in different places, and clothing makers just don't acknowledge that. After that experience, I went home railing about the clothing manufacturers and how unfair they are. But at the same time, I realized I was in that place because I could no longer wear a closet of clothes I liked that had fit me for years. I got on the scale for the first time in 3 months, and found that the number was 10 pounds higher than before. I looked at recent pictures, and they verified that fact. Around that time, my dad went in for his second stress test in 5 years. Didn't tell me until after it was

[nocturnaleye]

If that's an offer to go to coffee with you, then I'll take you up on it. I think I'd rather discuss most of how I feel about this in person, but I'm afraid I'll forget some of what I want to say (and I don't want to be whipping out a notebook), so I'll touch on a bit of it here.

I too have a closet full of clothes that don't fit me anymore and I won't get rid of them because I want to wear them again someday. I want to be smaller like I used to be, but I can't seem to get motivated to do something about it. I know it would be smart and that I'm risking my health and that I feel better when I'm smaller. I just resent the idea that I can't be accepted and liked the way that I am. I don't trust diets. I'd have no idea which one I should try. There is more...about loving the self and feeling denied, but I'll get into that in person.

Thank you for sharing all of this. I really never mind when people get long-winded when talking with me. Unless they are full of it.

Oh...and someone I was with the other night thinks you have a really

[not_one_of_us]

That someone ain't so bad himself. ;-)

How does coffee tomorrow after work sound? I'd say today, but I think I'm going to take advantage of the fact that it's the longest day of the year and I have a Jeep Liberty that can hold my bike without a rack.

[nocturnaleye]

I have to work until 9pm tonight anyway and I'm feeling kind of drained. Tomorrow could be good. I had asked Dorian if he was free tomorrow, but he gave me a maybe. I unfortunately left my cell phone at home on the charger today too. I'll have to try to get ahold of him after I get home. I'm off from thursday-sunday this week also. I want to go see one of Dorian's standup shows this weekend, but I don't have anything else set in stone so far. I'll get back to you in a little while.

[chibitig1]

the clothing industry is insane. if ur not incredible tall and thin as a rail they don't make clothes for u. i am 5'5", 135lb and even tho i am supposedly "average", i can't find shit when i go shopping either. i don't buy girl jeans anymore b/c i am not an anoerxic 14 yr old. sometimes, in the clothing department, i almost wish i was a boy. *hug*

[nocturnaleye]

I actually used to like to wear guys jeans sometimes when I was smaller because I liked the way they didn't come up so far on my waist.

[eyerebecca]

First of all: you are beautiful. Every time I see you you look great

[maggot93]

amen....she said what i was about to...it's ALL women....ever notice that mens' clothes aren't fad driven and their pants size=their waist size? go figure...

[nocturnaleye]

Ranting is fine. If I can say something that inspires someone, then I am happy to listen to what they have to say.

Yeah, I would like to learn how to sew at least well enough so that I can alter the clothes that sort of work and make them look good on me. This would also be really practical if I did lose some weight. I wonder though how much it would cost me to get things altered. I will have to start checking into that.

Thanks :)

[__batgirl__]

*nods* it isn't the weight aspect. it is hard to find clothes that are made correctly and fit appropriately when you're short, no matter what weight you are. I am totally sympathetic to what a pain it is to find decent fitting clothes - just want you to understand that being smaller wouldn't change that. I have to alter almost everything.