I am free & the fog has lifted . . .
Upon final review the Prosecuting Attorney/DA decided not to pursue my case. I had a good cry and then turned my attention toward the future.
THE POSITIVE SIDE OF THIS - I AM FREE
No more living my life under a microscope. I can write in my journal, create, share and express myself artistically.
SAFEGUARDS ARE NOW IN PLACE
My former therapist was terminated from his job 4 months ago. I was granted a DV - Order of Protection against him. Additionally, a formal complaint is on file with the licensing board. This will make it easier for somebody else to come forward should he repeat this behavior in the future. I have advice on selecting a therapist that I learned the hard way. I will include it on my Survivors Solace website.
THE FOG HAS LIFTED
I ran out of 2 anti-depressant medications I had been taking on a long-term basis. My insurance lapsed and I couldn't afford them. I went through abrupt withdrawals on an emotional, psychological and physical level. I got through it and I was met with an unexpected reward . . .
Mental clarity, restlessness, drive and creative thoughts/images -racing through my mind. As well as a desire to connect with the outside world.
Some challenges come with this - the nightmares are back but so is the vivid dream imagery I had been without for so long. Now going to sleep is like going to the movies.
THE BALANCING ACT
I am taking Lecithin to help w/depression (keeps those neurotransmitters in line). I also put plenty of vanilla and cinnamon in my tea each morning as they seem to help boost serotonin levels. I remain on my other medications (to control symptoms of ADHD, prevent seizures and for my Fibromyalgia).
AT PRESENT
I am taking pictures and look forward to sharing them with you on my website and in my LJ. I am also finishing up some changes to my apartment and my studio which I've slowly been working on over the last 5 months.
THE POSITIVE SIDE OF THIS - I AM FREE
No more living my life under a microscope. I can write in my journal, create, share and express myself artistically.
SAFEGUARDS ARE NOW IN PLACE
My former therapist was terminated from his job 4 months ago. I was granted a DV - Order of Protection against him. Additionally, a formal complaint is on file with the licensing board. This will make it easier for somebody else to come forward should he repeat this behavior in the future. I have advice on selecting a therapist that I learned the hard way. I will include it on my Survivors Solace website.
THE FOG HAS LIFTED
I ran out of 2 anti-depressant medications I had been taking on a long-term basis. My insurance lapsed and I couldn't afford them. I went through abrupt withdrawals on an emotional, psychological and physical level. I got through it and I was met with an unexpected reward . . .
Mental clarity, restlessness, drive and creative thoughts/images -racing through my mind. As well as a desire to connect with the outside world.
Some challenges come with this - the nightmares are back but so is the vivid dream imagery I had been without for so long. Now going to sleep is like going to the movies.
THE BALANCING ACT
I am taking Lecithin to help w/depression (keeps those neurotransmitters in line). I also put plenty of vanilla and cinnamon in my tea each morning as they seem to help boost serotonin levels. I remain on my other medications (to control symptoms of ADHD, prevent seizures and for my Fibromyalgia).
AT PRESENT
I am taking pictures and look forward to sharing them with you on my website and in my LJ. I am also finishing up some changes to my apartment and my studio which I've slowly been working on over the last 5 months.