The Gift of Fear
"The Gift of Fear" is a book that a sensitive and kind detective recommended I read. It's changing my life. I've learned fear can cripple or empower me - it's my choice.
I finally realized what fear isn't. It's not how you feel when you think of the worst case scenario, because there is no present danger. We often link things to fear, but those links are created by us - still isn't fear. Worrying and second guessing what could happen isn't fear.
the power of intuition
Learning to rely on my intuition and not worry about hurting the other persons feelings is a good way to prevent some psycho from worming their
way into my life. I'm striving to listen rather then ignore the gut instinct and feelings that tell me something is a little off - time to make a quick exit.
schedule fun into each and every day.
I'm learning to make time each day to do something I enjoy or spend time with one of my friends. My life doesn't have to stop every time I come upon another hurdle.
trials
I finally reported my therapist for rape and sexual assault. I am now victim turned defendant, my former therapist hired a sleazy, slimy criminal attorney to represent him and this man has no scruples. In a 3 hour deposition he bashed my website, insulted my attorney, threatened the legal advocate and my sister because he didn't want them present and didn't know that they were going to be there. And after all the insults and unprofessional behavior he engaged in he still tried to get me to back down and drop the DV-Order of Protection. I am not backing down, know matter how dificult he tries to make things for me.
He's sweating the criminal investigation. Until the first court hearing he had know idea my therapist was under investigation. He can't win this one. the evidence will destroy the therapist's credibility and prove he was lying.
looking at what I've gained from this experience
I am relieved my former therapist got fired from his job. At least, for now, he can't hurt anymore female clients.
I'm hoping what I do will encourage the others to come forward without shame or embarrassment to seek the justice and closure they need.
I go back to court Wednesday for the third time to get my permanent order of protection. Then the first leg of this journey will be completed.
~Okay every body huddle together for a group hug :)~
Niveva
I finally realized what fear isn't. It's not how you feel when you think of the worst case scenario, because there is no present danger. We often link things to fear, but those links are created by us - still isn't fear. Worrying and second guessing what could happen isn't fear.
the power of intuition
Learning to rely on my intuition and not worry about hurting the other persons feelings is a good way to prevent some psycho from worming their
way into my life. I'm striving to listen rather then ignore the gut instinct and feelings that tell me something is a little off - time to make a quick exit.
schedule fun into each and every day.
I'm learning to make time each day to do something I enjoy or spend time with one of my friends. My life doesn't have to stop every time I come upon another hurdle.
trials
I finally reported my therapist for rape and sexual assault. I am now victim turned defendant, my former therapist hired a sleazy, slimy criminal attorney to represent him and this man has no scruples. In a 3 hour deposition he bashed my website, insulted my attorney, threatened the legal advocate and my sister because he didn't want them present and didn't know that they were going to be there. And after all the insults and unprofessional behavior he engaged in he still tried to get me to back down and drop the DV-Order of Protection. I am not backing down, know matter how dificult he tries to make things for me.
He's sweating the criminal investigation. Until the first court hearing he had know idea my therapist was under investigation. He can't win this one. the evidence will destroy the therapist's credibility and prove he was lying.
looking at what I've gained from this experience
I am relieved my former therapist got fired from his job. At least, for now, he can't hurt anymore female clients.
I'm hoping what I do will encourage the others to come forward without shame or embarrassment to seek the justice and closure they need.
I go back to court Wednesday for the third time to get my permanent order of protection. Then the first leg of this journey will be completed.
~Okay every body huddle together for a group hug :)~
Niveva