Walls coming down
So, one of the things that I hate most in this world is letting my walls down. Number one they make me feel the things I dont want to feel, which is why they are up in the first place. Secondly, I have enough crap going on in the here and now without drudging up old shit. Ya know? Anyway, this really great guy I know has been helping me with breaking down the walls, because I am doing the same thing for him. I am not allowing him to hide in them while all I want to do is hide in mine. I am angry at the same time as grateful for his kindness, and awesomeness, but I don't know how much longer I can allow the destruction of the things I have tried to hard to keep built. Those walls have made me a fortress and without them I am open to attack. I just dont know. I just dont know.