my cat titled this "Z" when she posted it...does that mean i'm boring?
(my cat posted this before it was done, so i had to go back and finish it and then repost it. my cat is always trying to sabotage things i do on the computer.)
kevin fischer took me to black lotus on friday, and kevin bledsoe colored my tattoo in. it was 2 and a half hours of intense pain, although i never complained, so i think i tolerated it pretty well. i stayed at home all day yesterday, walking around like an old woman in my pajamas, trying to recover. i'm doing a lot better today...might even leave the house. :)
i just wanted to clarify my decision to be single and my lack of interest in dating anyone. i'm not walking around yelling at every guy i see and telling him that all men are assholes. most of my friends are guys, so it's not like i'm gonna tell them all to piss off. i think most guys make perfectly good friends, but dating is a totally different realm. a guy who makes a good friend can make a not-so-good boyfriend.
most importantly, this decision is about the fact that i need to focus on my own life for once, without having to deal with the needs of another person within a relationship. it's also because i've had a great deal of bad experiences in my life, and i'm really tired of getting hurt. i'm tired of hearing the nice guy routine, where someone says "i'm not like all those other guys, you deserve someone who treats you right, someone like me"....and yeah, those guys end up bein jerks too. i'm also tired of people being immature and avoiding confrontation just because it's easier to pretend nothing ever happened than deal with it face to face.
i don't want to sit here and bitch about all the things that have been done to me that i haven't deserved, but let's just say i'm going to be a lot less tolerant and forgiving of such behavior from now on. i get walked all over because i'm such a nice person, and so i have to put my guard up in order to protect my heart.
i think what it comes down to is that i have gotten into relationships too quickly in the past few months because i was afraid that i would miss an opportunity and regret it. i have since decided that if something is worthwhile, there's no way i'm going to miss it and therefore i should stick to my decision to be single. anyone that i share a mutual attraction to will have to understand that i can't be anything more than friends right now. the most a-typical and wonderful guy i know lives very far away from me right now, so i'm just kind of holding out some kind of hope for the future.
i hope this has somewhat straightened out any bitching i have done in the past, as far as guys hitting on me and whatnot. i have no problem with meeting new people of the male persuasion, my problem is the unwanted pickup lines and sexual innuendos. basically, men being nice to me just to try to get in my pants. i welcome friendship, it's the underlying intentions that make the difference. ah, there, i'm done. hehe
kevin fischer took me to black lotus on friday, and kevin bledsoe colored my tattoo in. it was 2 and a half hours of intense pain, although i never complained, so i think i tolerated it pretty well. i stayed at home all day yesterday, walking around like an old woman in my pajamas, trying to recover. i'm doing a lot better today...might even leave the house. :)
i just wanted to clarify my decision to be single and my lack of interest in dating anyone. i'm not walking around yelling at every guy i see and telling him that all men are assholes. most of my friends are guys, so it's not like i'm gonna tell them all to piss off. i think most guys make perfectly good friends, but dating is a totally different realm. a guy who makes a good friend can make a not-so-good boyfriend.
most importantly, this decision is about the fact that i need to focus on my own life for once, without having to deal with the needs of another person within a relationship. it's also because i've had a great deal of bad experiences in my life, and i'm really tired of getting hurt. i'm tired of hearing the nice guy routine, where someone says "i'm not like all those other guys, you deserve someone who treats you right, someone like me"....and yeah, those guys end up bein jerks too. i'm also tired of people being immature and avoiding confrontation just because it's easier to pretend nothing ever happened than deal with it face to face.
i don't want to sit here and bitch about all the things that have been done to me that i haven't deserved, but let's just say i'm going to be a lot less tolerant and forgiving of such behavior from now on. i get walked all over because i'm such a nice person, and so i have to put my guard up in order to protect my heart.
i think what it comes down to is that i have gotten into relationships too quickly in the past few months because i was afraid that i would miss an opportunity and regret it. i have since decided that if something is worthwhile, there's no way i'm going to miss it and therefore i should stick to my decision to be single. anyone that i share a mutual attraction to will have to understand that i can't be anything more than friends right now. the most a-typical and wonderful guy i know lives very far away from me right now, so i'm just kind of holding out some kind of hope for the future.
i hope this has somewhat straightened out any bitching i have done in the past, as far as guys hitting on me and whatnot. i have no problem with meeting new people of the male persuasion, my problem is the unwanted pickup lines and sexual innuendos. basically, men being nice to me just to try to get in my pants. i welcome friendship, it's the underlying intentions that make the difference. ah, there, i'm done. hehe