Chap 20
Finaly i know! god damn! i need to update more often, whoa up to 20 already!
Chap 20 Unexplanable
I stamered "uh..." i actlualy hadnt thought of that.
More or less, i didnt ever think we would even get to this point.
you could say, i was compleatly unprepared.
Caiti once again saved me by chimeing in "Well, Keeping mis.Lambert Calm..." She sugested, and then almost backed off timidtly, looking at me.
I only flashed a smirk, Mom, yes mom..that was our problem now. Convenceing mom.
My mother was a smart women, she always suprised me, some times saying no to the things i thought she may say yes to and vise virsa. BUt she always had a logical reason behind every word. Weather i noticed it at the time didnt really mater, eventualy i understood what every motive she had was.
She wasnt like the parents who were like "because i said so" and actualy had no reason, they just didnt want to deal with it.
IF she said 'because i said so' it was more or less 'because my reason is to complexed to explain' and eventualy i would figure out on my own what that reason was.
Though after all the odd things i had asked my mother, how in the world was i to explain snowballs odd transfermation..and even more improtantly, how the hell would she react?
this wasnt another 'can i stay over another hour?' or a 'pleasseee its the only time i can go'
or an extention on my bed time, this was compleatly out of anything i would have ever thought i would have to aprotch my mother on.
and when it came down to it...
i was scared to death of that women.
My dad only smiled, holding back a cuckle, "I should have known " he laughed with a wirey shake of his head.
SO tired, he has been so tired lightly. Unlike my mother who seemed to always be doing something, my father had been slowing down, his hands tired and his face full of wrinkles of hard days and days when he couldnt stop smileing. Unlike my father My mother didnt seem to age at all , still looking like she was in her 40s when she was in fact in her late 50s.
"you know how mom gets" I took the sugestion caiti had made and desided that would be the best choice till we could all sit down and figure out things together
"Yes I know" he answered 'well duh..'was what he ment.
"well then" My dad said after a pause, scratching his head that was lightly covered in thin faded strawbary blonde hairs.
"Lets deside this together, get all of you down stairs and-" he said makeing a circle gesture with his hand, seeming to have lost his words "and you know" he strugled before giveing up and placieng his hands on his knees. IT seemed to take him a bit more effort to stand up then usual. But me geting so stressed, had failed to relize this.
Caiti however...caught it imidtly. Her Blue eyes flashed to scan my expresion behind the large glass frames that adored her face.
But alas she found nothing that showed any idication of me knowing , nor noticeing anything about my fathers usual behavor.
MY dad stoped for a moment, takeing a brife second to look at snowball before shakeing his head as if saying 'oh god...why???whhyy???'
as if god would answer.
He steped out of the room leaveing me , caiti and snowball (who was curently trying to take off all the clothing that had seemed to attach themselfs to his body and was strugling with a scarf at the moment) alone.
I looked at caiti,
Caiti looked at me and then looked at snowball.
"AHH" Snowballs voice rang in frustration as he fell backward into my shoe rack. causeing the hole bloody thing to snap.
Caiti closed her eyes and placed her hand on her forhead "oh dear..." She said with a sigh, she knew as well as i this was going to be more then eather of us had bargened for.
My eyebrows rasied as i watches snowball fight off the clothing that was snaping left and right off of the pink and purple plastic hangers.
I should have been angry that my clothing was being shreaded by the half breeds claws. But i felt more of in a daze then anything.
sorta like suspenced in time. Just waiting for something to happen to snap me back to reality.
"Hey..." me and caiti turned, Andie and gia were in the doorway.
Andies expresion changed as she held back laughter , i imagioned she saw the mess snowball had goten himself into.
"hey " i replied, less then full heartedly.
I strided over to my bed, not bothering to keep my posture or a hide the helplessness i was feeling from my face.
I sat on the bed with a less then graseful landing.
Keeping my eyes on my hands.
Caiti soon joined beside me, her blue eyes never leaveing my face as i atempted to avoid her gaze.
Gia sat oposide side of caiti, placeing her hand on my sholder "hey...we will get threw this okay?"
"yeah..i know" i mumbled.
"pfft..cats" Andie smirked, as she atempted to help snowball fight off the attacking garments.
Why was i so depressed? my moods changed constantly because of the medication i took so regulary, and the messed up chimicals that resided inside my brain.
BUt this unexplained depression was new.
I hadnt felt this way in quite a long time.
I was diagnoced with saverie clinical depression years ago, and was quickly put on antidepressence to keep my susidle thoughts at bay.
This had been before i had met caiti, who i thought was the real reason my deperession subsited so rapidly.
BUt i had taken my medication, and this random mood didnt at all explain anything.
nor could i see what or why it was trigered.
I thought i should be more worried then depressed.
or angery perhaps?
or frustrated?
but depressed? it didnt fit..it just didnt fit...
Chap 20 Unexplanable
I stamered "uh..." i actlualy hadnt thought of that.
More or less, i didnt ever think we would even get to this point.
you could say, i was compleatly unprepared.
Caiti once again saved me by chimeing in "Well, Keeping mis.Lambert Calm..." She sugested, and then almost backed off timidtly, looking at me.
I only flashed a smirk, Mom, yes mom..that was our problem now. Convenceing mom.
My mother was a smart women, she always suprised me, some times saying no to the things i thought she may say yes to and vise virsa. BUt she always had a logical reason behind every word. Weather i noticed it at the time didnt really mater, eventualy i understood what every motive she had was.
She wasnt like the parents who were like "because i said so" and actualy had no reason, they just didnt want to deal with it.
IF she said 'because i said so' it was more or less 'because my reason is to complexed to explain' and eventualy i would figure out on my own what that reason was.
Though after all the odd things i had asked my mother, how in the world was i to explain snowballs odd transfermation..and even more improtantly, how the hell would she react?
this wasnt another 'can i stay over another hour?' or a 'pleasseee its the only time i can go'
or an extention on my bed time, this was compleatly out of anything i would have ever thought i would have to aprotch my mother on.
and when it came down to it...
i was scared to death of that women.
My dad only smiled, holding back a cuckle, "I should have known " he laughed with a wirey shake of his head.
SO tired, he has been so tired lightly. Unlike my mother who seemed to always be doing something, my father had been slowing down, his hands tired and his face full of wrinkles of hard days and days when he couldnt stop smileing. Unlike my father My mother didnt seem to age at all , still looking like she was in her 40s when she was in fact in her late 50s.
"you know how mom gets" I took the sugestion caiti had made and desided that would be the best choice till we could all sit down and figure out things together
"Yes I know" he answered 'well duh..'was what he ment.
"well then" My dad said after a pause, scratching his head that was lightly covered in thin faded strawbary blonde hairs.
"Lets deside this together, get all of you down stairs and-" he said makeing a circle gesture with his hand, seeming to have lost his words "and you know" he strugled before giveing up and placieng his hands on his knees. IT seemed to take him a bit more effort to stand up then usual. But me geting so stressed, had failed to relize this.
Caiti however...caught it imidtly. Her Blue eyes flashed to scan my expresion behind the large glass frames that adored her face.
But alas she found nothing that showed any idication of me knowing , nor noticeing anything about my fathers usual behavor.
MY dad stoped for a moment, takeing a brife second to look at snowball before shakeing his head as if saying 'oh god...why???whhyy???'
as if god would answer.
He steped out of the room leaveing me , caiti and snowball (who was curently trying to take off all the clothing that had seemed to attach themselfs to his body and was strugling with a scarf at the moment) alone.
I looked at caiti,
Caiti looked at me and then looked at snowball.
"AHH" Snowballs voice rang in frustration as he fell backward into my shoe rack. causeing the hole bloody thing to snap.
Caiti closed her eyes and placed her hand on her forhead "oh dear..." She said with a sigh, she knew as well as i this was going to be more then eather of us had bargened for.
My eyebrows rasied as i watches snowball fight off the clothing that was snaping left and right off of the pink and purple plastic hangers.
I should have been angry that my clothing was being shreaded by the half breeds claws. But i felt more of in a daze then anything.
sorta like suspenced in time. Just waiting for something to happen to snap me back to reality.
"Hey..." me and caiti turned, Andie and gia were in the doorway.
Andies expresion changed as she held back laughter , i imagioned she saw the mess snowball had goten himself into.
"hey " i replied, less then full heartedly.
I strided over to my bed, not bothering to keep my posture or a hide the helplessness i was feeling from my face.
I sat on the bed with a less then graseful landing.
Keeping my eyes on my hands.
Caiti soon joined beside me, her blue eyes never leaveing my face as i atempted to avoid her gaze.
Gia sat oposide side of caiti, placeing her hand on my sholder "hey...we will get threw this okay?"
"yeah..i know" i mumbled.
"pfft..cats" Andie smirked, as she atempted to help snowball fight off the attacking garments.
Why was i so depressed? my moods changed constantly because of the medication i took so regulary, and the messed up chimicals that resided inside my brain.
BUt this unexplained depression was new.
I hadnt felt this way in quite a long time.
I was diagnoced with saverie clinical depression years ago, and was quickly put on antidepressence to keep my susidle thoughts at bay.
This had been before i had met caiti, who i thought was the real reason my deperession subsited so rapidly.
BUt i had taken my medication, and this random mood didnt at all explain anything.
nor could i see what or why it was trigered.
I thought i should be more worried then depressed.
or angery perhaps?
or frustrated?
but depressed? it didnt fit..it just didnt fit...