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Im going to ask mom for a box so i can send caiti my gift! im so exsited and proud, i really hope she likes it.
I miss her alot...
well today was fine, save till the end when nathan was like "okay ill go home and take a shower " and i was like "okay ill pick you up then on my way home ^_^" cuz i walk. and i was looking forward to spending some time alone with him today becasue we havent really had any 'alone' time for a wile, and i was hopeing to stay home for a bit.
well i walked to his house, after calling and leaveing a message.
no nathan.
so i call telling him im walking home, and of course chris comes with me.
as im walking im already annoied because he said he would be home.
so i keep walking and im like "if hes at bens im going to kill him" because we have been at bens all week! and i wanted to be alone with him.
and then i think, i bet lexy picked him up.
and that REALLY pissed me off, lexy is his ex.
so i get a call, aparently lexy did take him home. oh but you see she didnt take him home she took him to HER house.
i wouldnt have cared if she took him home. but she didnt. he went to her house, and then calls me up after IM ALREADY walking home alone with chris like "oh im sorry"....im sorry?
he did this a few days ago too! and i told him it bothered me. so he does it again? I HATE IT! i Hate it when people arnt were they say they are going to be, i have to go OUT OF MY WAY to find them. then i worrie and spend the rest of th etime thinking what could happen to them and if they are okay or whats going on.
yes there are exspetions, but going to your Ex's isnt one of them. im sorry it bothers me but it really..really does.
i mean what if i said 'hey ill come over after school ^_^" and the without telling you i go to devlins and then after im at devlins hosue im like "oh well he picked me up"...
wouldnt that suck? yeah it would, it would bother any one!
mayeb im makeing a biger deal out of this then i should but i already had asked once. what bothers me most is that he wasnt were he was supposed to be, and he had NO reason to be there.
If there was a reason then maybe i would be more understanding...
but today i wanted to be alone with him. i wanted to have 'personal' time...
i mean what the hell?
so much for those plans..
oh shit, i have to do that portrat shoot today T_T' ill probably end up useing some one eles , or something, or my dog, i dont know ill figure it out i always do.
i dont like being mislead..
and i really dont like being told its not a big deal..
its a big deal to me...
*sigh* im just ...really confused. today at lunch it was like "^_^" all around. and now, i donno why i feel so hurt.
but by saterday i should be fine.
ill update snowball today probably. and take a needed nap.
and ill do that math, and mayeb draw.
Im going to ask mom for a box so i can send caiti my gift! im so exsited and proud, i really hope she likes it.
I miss her alot...
well today was fine, save till the end when nathan was like "okay ill go home and take a shower " and i was like "okay ill pick you up then on my way home ^_^" cuz i walk. and i was looking forward to spending some time alone with him today becasue we havent really had any 'alone' time for a wile, and i was hopeing to stay home for a bit.
well i walked to his house, after calling and leaveing a message.
no nathan.
so i call telling him im walking home, and of course chris comes with me.
as im walking im already annoied because he said he would be home.
so i keep walking and im like "if hes at bens im going to kill him" because we have been at bens all week! and i wanted to be alone with him.
and then i think, i bet lexy picked him up.
and that REALLY pissed me off, lexy is his ex.
so i get a call, aparently lexy did take him home. oh but you see she didnt take him home she took him to HER house.
i wouldnt have cared if she took him home. but she didnt. he went to her house, and then calls me up after IM ALREADY walking home alone with chris like "oh im sorry"....im sorry?
he did this a few days ago too! and i told him it bothered me. so he does it again? I HATE IT! i Hate it when people arnt were they say they are going to be, i have to go OUT OF MY WAY to find them. then i worrie and spend the rest of th etime thinking what could happen to them and if they are okay or whats going on.
yes there are exspetions, but going to your Ex's isnt one of them. im sorry it bothers me but it really..really does.
i mean what if i said 'hey ill come over after school ^_^" and the without telling you i go to devlins and then after im at devlins hosue im like "oh well he picked me up"...
wouldnt that suck? yeah it would, it would bother any one!
mayeb im makeing a biger deal out of this then i should but i already had asked once. what bothers me most is that he wasnt were he was supposed to be, and he had NO reason to be there.
If there was a reason then maybe i would be more understanding...
but today i wanted to be alone with him. i wanted to have 'personal' time...
i mean what the hell?
so much for those plans..
oh shit, i have to do that portrat shoot today T_T' ill probably end up useing some one eles , or something, or my dog, i dont know ill figure it out i always do.
i dont like being mislead..
and i really dont like being told its not a big deal..
its a big deal to me...
*sigh* im just ...really confused. today at lunch it was like "^_^" all around. and now, i donno why i feel so hurt.
but by saterday i should be fine.
ill update snowball today probably. and take a needed nap.
and ill do that math, and mayeb draw.