For the longest time i forgot what it was like to beloved by a man this way. I really never thought i would be inlove like this. I never thought i would crave your attention as much as i do. I just feel like the attention i use to get is now going away. I'm not going to get mad or sad, i'm just going to pretend that everything is okay. I dont want ( Read more... )

well last week i went to the beach a couple of times. it was really fun... except for the part when i started to get jealous of someone, but im over that now. then for a couple of days i was wicked sick with a cold .. ya that really sucked!!! Me and helders nine monthes was kinda nice. he got me 8 roses for 8 bucks! how cool is that.. lol.. well ( Read more... )

okay so some time has passed.. my birthday was okay with a few minor snitches.. but other than that it was fun. steph moved to Fl and i can say that i miss her alot. i cant wait until she comes back home. not alot of exciting things has happend.. well what do u think.. i live in MA lol.. anyways.. a couple of weeks agomy pep had an heart attack and ( Read more... )

4 more days until the big 1-8.. yippy skippy! im really excited... i actually cant wait for my bday anymore, i juss want it to come now!!! haha ( Read more... )

for the past couple of weeks it has been rain and cold!!!! but now its full of sunshine and hotness!!! lol well things are getting better as they go along.. camping was fun...i guess u could say that i needed it... but anyways for the past couple of weeks i have been feeling really left out. i mean i ask my friends if they want to have a gurl night ( Read more... )

for the past couple days i have been on the go.. between softball almost being done and working i really havent had a day when i could come home and go to bed and sleep.. im soo tired! i cant wait until this weekend becuz im leaving to go camping with helder! which is wicked exciting!! this week is going to be juss as bad.. i mean today i have ( Read more... )

This week/weekend had to be the most painful time of my life ever. I lost someone that i never thought i would lose. I always thought that he would be around the next time i came to visit. How could give so much pain to so many people? To me it seems like that is what his plan was all along. I feel like no matter how much i try i always lose ( Read more... )

so i havent written in you for like EVER! i must say that alot has happened!.. me and helder have been together for 6 months!!! HOLY SHIT! thats a long time lol.. anyways u would think people arent so stupid to try and break us up.. but there are still some people who are still trying! honestly i find it quite interesting...but wat really sucks is ( Read more... )

okay so my week juss really sucked ass... not only did i think i lost my best friend i got into things that i probably shouldnt have.. but i was trying to be a friend to someone else! wtf... i juss dont understand people.. honestly i rather crawl in hole. that would make EVERYONES life so much better! im soo frikin depressed.. i juss dont get how ( Read more... )

okay so the past couple of weeks i have been with helder like very day.. :) which i like alot! hehe.. i think the only day i really dont see him is on thursday and thats becuz i have to work.. but other than that i see him all the time. actually tonite im sleeping at his house becuz i dont want stay by myself and his mom loves me :) anyways.. ( Read more... )