yaaaaaaaaaa... i juss had an awesome week.. NOT!
okay so my week juss really sucked ass... not only did i think i lost my best friend i got into things that i probably shouldnt have.. but i was trying to be a friend to someone else! wtf... i juss dont understand people.. honestly i rather crawl in hole. that would make EVERYONES life so much better! im soo frikin depressed.. i juss dont get how people can be so weird! i think my most problem is that i trust people way to much..i think i might need to stop that. i juss dont know why i feel like everything is my fault.. i mean i know i stuck up for a friend but i would have done it for them... and if that other person is lieing to me.. then im screwed becuz then i dont have friends and once again im a loner! yaaa.. im soo excited! not!... i juss want to run away.. i juss want to get away from dracut.. i want to start fresh with everything... of course i would bring helder! lol he would want to run away with me too.. hahaha.. i juss want on friend that i can lean on all the time.. and i dont have to worry about them screwing me in the end. im so sick of it... generally i would keep trying but rite now im on the virge of juss giving up on EVERYTHING except a few things * cough HELDER cough* i miss my friends that really do care about me... and will love me for all that i am.. but unfortually they live all the way in GA ( which i might go there for feb vaca.) next year! hehe.. funn! i hope it really happens.. but anyways... EVERYTHING right now is NOT okay... but i hope they will......... maybe....:/