my life is a living, breathing hell hole!!!!
i don't even kno where to start! well i guess with work, it is fuckin just a joke! ppl there pretending to be ur friends, when the fact of the matter is they could care less. u not being able to talk to ur bosses and voice ur opion about a problem that maybe they can help u resolve b/c they consider that tattling and that to them gets u on the "work it out or ur fired list" which is pure bullshit in my book! never once have i told a boss something that i thought was important to me and have them tell someone else to resolve the problem or i am fired. it is a big fuckin joke and i am in the center!
i wish my family can just resolve their difference and move on this is rediculous bullshit that i come home to all the time. all families have fights, but they learn to resolve their differences and put the past behind them to concentrate on the future. but mine obviously has a problem doing that but ya its all good i guess i just have to deal wit it and be stuck in the middle once again.
i am still sticking with the same conclusion that 98 percent of guys are assholes and i am not just taking bout the relationships i am talking bout guys that u r just friends wit. almost every single one of them has said they would call me back sometime that day and did they? hell no that would require an effort. i don't understand, if u tell someone that u absolutly hate that and it is ur biggest pet peeve, y do they still do it to u? take for example my friend bill. now me and bill go out every now and then and we have fun, well he is one that does the i will call u back and neva does and then i will try callin him after that and he has nothin. in fact the last time i called him and actually got to talk to him for maybe 3 miutes b4 he played the lemmie call u back card he was sayin that he isn't calling me back for mine and his benefit. now ne body in there right mind would obviously ask, "and how is not callin me back benefiting me." but then again no answer but an i dunno. that is the biggest bunch of shit i have ever heard. i mean i even gave him the opportunity to tell me if he didn't want to talk to me or hang out wit me ne more i came flat out and asked him and his reponse was no thats not it at all, then wut the fuck is going on, can ne one answer that fuckin question for me? i give up!!!!
it is not only guys that do that but my girl friends too. well supposedly jon and erika r having a party at erikas house and honestly i don't think erika wants me there just b/c of the fact that only jon and kerri were actually invited by her, jon invited me and some other ppl. i mean hell if she don't want me to go then she needs to just come out and say it not to play these games wit me, b/c the way i saw it me and her resolved our differences and were friends again but its wuteva i guess!
i dunno wut to do ne more! i am like an mouse tryin to find the cheese at the end of a maze that was constructed so that it is made impossible. i have practally cryed myself to sleep everynight this week. wut i really need is my perfession so i can be one of them nurses that dedicate themselves to saving ppl and to there job and nothing else! i honestly think that is how my life is going to end up, just like the girl in the movie just like heaven. in the beginning of that movie she neva goes out she is so dedicated to work and thats how i am going to end up. but hey at least i will be doing something useful with my life.
well i guess i am going to get back to the studing for my exams this week and then cry myself to sleep again tonight. call me if u want, not like ne one is going to but wut the hell.
i wish my family can just resolve their difference and move on this is rediculous bullshit that i come home to all the time. all families have fights, but they learn to resolve their differences and put the past behind them to concentrate on the future. but mine obviously has a problem doing that but ya its all good i guess i just have to deal wit it and be stuck in the middle once again.
i am still sticking with the same conclusion that 98 percent of guys are assholes and i am not just taking bout the relationships i am talking bout guys that u r just friends wit. almost every single one of them has said they would call me back sometime that day and did they? hell no that would require an effort. i don't understand, if u tell someone that u absolutly hate that and it is ur biggest pet peeve, y do they still do it to u? take for example my friend bill. now me and bill go out every now and then and we have fun, well he is one that does the i will call u back and neva does and then i will try callin him after that and he has nothin. in fact the last time i called him and actually got to talk to him for maybe 3 miutes b4 he played the lemmie call u back card he was sayin that he isn't calling me back for mine and his benefit. now ne body in there right mind would obviously ask, "and how is not callin me back benefiting me." but then again no answer but an i dunno. that is the biggest bunch of shit i have ever heard. i mean i even gave him the opportunity to tell me if he didn't want to talk to me or hang out wit me ne more i came flat out and asked him and his reponse was no thats not it at all, then wut the fuck is going on, can ne one answer that fuckin question for me? i give up!!!!
it is not only guys that do that but my girl friends too. well supposedly jon and erika r having a party at erikas house and honestly i don't think erika wants me there just b/c of the fact that only jon and kerri were actually invited by her, jon invited me and some other ppl. i mean hell if she don't want me to go then she needs to just come out and say it not to play these games wit me, b/c the way i saw it me and her resolved our differences and were friends again but its wuteva i guess!
i dunno wut to do ne more! i am like an mouse tryin to find the cheese at the end of a maze that was constructed so that it is made impossible. i have practally cryed myself to sleep everynight this week. wut i really need is my perfession so i can be one of them nurses that dedicate themselves to saving ppl and to there job and nothing else! i honestly think that is how my life is going to end up, just like the girl in the movie just like heaven. in the beginning of that movie she neva goes out she is so dedicated to work and thats how i am going to end up. but hey at least i will be doing something useful with my life.
well i guess i am going to get back to the studing for my exams this week and then cry myself to sleep again tonight. call me if u want, not like ne one is going to but wut the hell.