i dunno wut to do wit myself!!
u kno the saying that life deosn't get ne betta it only gets worse, well i am beganing to think that they made that saying expecially for me. for one, my friends...... the like neva call me ( with the exception of very few). and when i try to keep in touch with them to prevent loosing the friendship it is impossible... it is like they want to go out at first then comes the day and they disapear and u can't contact them. it is like they r telling u that they could care less if u r friends and they basically don't wanna have ne thing to do with u. i really don't understand it. i try my hardest to keep the friends that i got b/c lets face it i don't have very many left..... but i still try on top of work and school. any free time i have i am always trying to call my friends ( the ones i have left) and plan something out but it neva goes as planned. i always end up getting blown off and ditched and no explanation or ne thing as to y this happened. i have been told to stop calling my friends and the ones that call me r the true friends, well if thats the case i maybe have 3. maybe i am betta off i mean me and kerri r kinda goin our seperate ways which may not be a bad thing b/c then i won't be as depressed when she leaves in the summer and it gives me more time to concentrate on school and get into the nursing program faster. OH speaking of which i am hoping.... like prying to god hoping that in another year or so i will be accepted into madonna university and move out there to attend their nursing program. that would be a dream come true!!! julie is coming home on wednesday and i am so excited. i miss her so much. ya we r goin to have sum fun on my free time and then she is goin to leave me again and then it will be time for more tears like b4. but ya not much has changed.... i am still the mouse stuck in the impossible maze!