Honey Vanity
Honey Vanity [One-Shot]
Pairing: KözixMana
Genre: romance, angst
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction. I do not own the song Honey Vanity (written and performed by Közi) nor do I make any money of this. Not even my own translation!
Author's note: A little drabble. I put this song on repeat, it is one of my favourites, and then I started thinking about the lyrics in it...The lyrics to the song are in italics. Written in Közi's POV.
Oh, how many nights did we spend together, discussing, searching for the answer?
Tell me, dear, do you know now what is human? Sometimes, I think you do know, but are too scared to acknowledge it... Your eyes betray your public image, that you are emotionless, cold. Sometimes your eyes are scared, sometimes sad. And I have seen your smile - so dazzling and warm.
Ah, sadness! Farewell
Farewell to this new deep suffering too
Ah, sadness! Hello
In elegance far too dazzling and bright
The stage lights are blinding, aren't they? It changed everything; yet you remained unchanged. Deep down nothing ever changed in you, you never was lost in uncertainties or fame. Always the strong one, the glue that kept us together and pushed us forward. Did you see me, us change? Perhaps we didn't change at all - we only realised what was already there.
Ah, sadness! Farewell
Bits and pieces fluttering down
Round and around merry-go-round
Ah, sadness! Farewell
"I think I'll try and shake things up"
Bright life merry-go-round
Your eyes on me... Did you know all along? How I longed for you! On-stage we were the doll and the harlequin, off-stage we were just Mana and Közi - best friends. The acts were enticing, sexy, always teasing me until I felt like I would go mad from wanting you.
Knowledge*...it reflects
You smiled enticingly
And the pretend dancing girl
Faded into the waves of darkness
parched and torn apart in time
Finally I dared to kiss you. It wasn't without hesitation or doubts; it was you, after all. Always so special, so precious to me. It felt like a dream, but how could I ever be able to dream of the softness of your lips?
Ah, sadness! Farewell
Quickly dancing round
Round and around merry-go-round
Ah, sadness! Farewell
"I shall try crashing down"
Bright life merry-go-round
It was brief, the thing we shared but never dared to utter as 'love'. At times I can't remember if we were broken even before it started. In the end the one seemingly so strong was weak, the brave was shy... The world made us both wake up from our dream.
To my heart...it will flow down
You hold up a bloodstained hand
Everything is painted in wounds
The end means we'll be killed
You...even my heart, again...
I declared my love as you turned away from me, quiet and with just a little whisper, 'I'm afraid'. You never really walked away from me, never pushed me away or rejected me. You stayed by my side, my best friend, softly smiling.
Ah, sadness! Farewell
Undecided and faltering
Round and around merry-go-round
Ah, sadness! Hello
Forever hanging in mid-air
And oh, isn't it FUN
Everyone is afraid of something. I see my fear, my anxieties, my love reflected in your eyes. Don't you know we belong together after all? Once again I kiss you, tell you I love you even though words are never enough. You're in my bed, sleeping sweetly and I can't help but brush the stray strands of hair from your eyes. The lack of the words 'I love you' coming from your mouth makes me uncertain of myself, though your body and eyes says so much.
In your eyes I found my own eyes
And then et cetera...
Have you found yours in mine?
~owari~
Pairing: KözixMana
Genre: romance, angst
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction. I do not own the song Honey Vanity (written and performed by Közi) nor do I make any money of this. Not even my own translation!
Author's note: A little drabble. I put this song on repeat, it is one of my favourites, and then I started thinking about the lyrics in it...The lyrics to the song are in italics. Written in Közi's POV.
Oh, how many nights did we spend together, discussing, searching for the answer?
Tell me, dear, do you know now what is human? Sometimes, I think you do know, but are too scared to acknowledge it... Your eyes betray your public image, that you are emotionless, cold. Sometimes your eyes are scared, sometimes sad. And I have seen your smile - so dazzling and warm.
Ah, sadness! Farewell
Farewell to this new deep suffering too
Ah, sadness! Hello
In elegance far too dazzling and bright
The stage lights are blinding, aren't they? It changed everything; yet you remained unchanged. Deep down nothing ever changed in you, you never was lost in uncertainties or fame. Always the strong one, the glue that kept us together and pushed us forward. Did you see me, us change? Perhaps we didn't change at all - we only realised what was already there.
Ah, sadness! Farewell
Bits and pieces fluttering down
Round and around merry-go-round
Ah, sadness! Farewell
"I think I'll try and shake things up"
Bright life merry-go-round
Your eyes on me... Did you know all along? How I longed for you! On-stage we were the doll and the harlequin, off-stage we were just Mana and Közi - best friends. The acts were enticing, sexy, always teasing me until I felt like I would go mad from wanting you.
Knowledge*...it reflects
You smiled enticingly
And the pretend dancing girl
Faded into the waves of darkness
parched and torn apart in time
Finally I dared to kiss you. It wasn't without hesitation or doubts; it was you, after all. Always so special, so precious to me. It felt like a dream, but how could I ever be able to dream of the softness of your lips?
Ah, sadness! Farewell
Quickly dancing round
Round and around merry-go-round
Ah, sadness! Farewell
"I shall try crashing down"
Bright life merry-go-round
It was brief, the thing we shared but never dared to utter as 'love'. At times I can't remember if we were broken even before it started. In the end the one seemingly so strong was weak, the brave was shy... The world made us both wake up from our dream.
To my heart...it will flow down
You hold up a bloodstained hand
Everything is painted in wounds
The end means we'll be killed
You...even my heart, again...
I declared my love as you turned away from me, quiet and with just a little whisper, 'I'm afraid'. You never really walked away from me, never pushed me away or rejected me. You stayed by my side, my best friend, softly smiling.
Ah, sadness! Farewell
Undecided and faltering
Round and around merry-go-round
Ah, sadness! Hello
Forever hanging in mid-air
And oh, isn't it FUN
Everyone is afraid of something. I see my fear, my anxieties, my love reflected in your eyes. Don't you know we belong together after all? Once again I kiss you, tell you I love you even though words are never enough. You're in my bed, sleeping sweetly and I can't help but brush the stray strands of hair from your eyes. The lack of the words 'I love you' coming from your mouth makes me uncertain of myself, though your body and eyes says so much.
In your eyes I found my own eyes
And then et cetera...
Have you found yours in mine?
~owari~