Something Drastic
Things are gonna change now
For the better
When I started this secrets project for my show, I had no idea that it would inspire me to such drastic actions. When I conceived the project, I thought that in writing things down I could leave them behind. I didn't realize that being right about that meant something drastic was going to happen to me and I'd start changing everything about myself that I hated. I didn't realize that I'd be making inquiries about disability tests. I didn't realize that I'd be deciding to re-think how I handle relationships. I didn't think I'd be cleaning up and taking out the garbage inside and out.
I didn't realize it would make me so polar, where one moment I'm feeling like I'm in the right place and I've found my calling and the next I'm freaking out at a friend for something minor that I should have been a whole lot more gracious about.
Today I don't feel that worn out by this process. Just a bit baffled at myself. Today consisted of finally getting a few minutes to hang out with Ricki, talking to Megan about Patricia Briggs books, finally hanging out with Shelley after promising to do it forever, and chatting with a few friends online... Also I led a Bible Study on Fear tonight and it was powerful and timely for a moment of need. It was a good night at Care Group. Better than ever.
We'll see where this journey takes me.
For the better
When I started this secrets project for my show, I had no idea that it would inspire me to such drastic actions. When I conceived the project, I thought that in writing things down I could leave them behind. I didn't realize that being right about that meant something drastic was going to happen to me and I'd start changing everything about myself that I hated. I didn't realize that I'd be making inquiries about disability tests. I didn't realize that I'd be deciding to re-think how I handle relationships. I didn't think I'd be cleaning up and taking out the garbage inside and out.
I didn't realize it would make me so polar, where one moment I'm feeling like I'm in the right place and I've found my calling and the next I'm freaking out at a friend for something minor that I should have been a whole lot more gracious about.
Today I don't feel that worn out by this process. Just a bit baffled at myself. Today consisted of finally getting a few minutes to hang out with Ricki, talking to Megan about Patricia Briggs books, finally hanging out with Shelley after promising to do it forever, and chatting with a few friends online... Also I led a Bible Study on Fear tonight and it was powerful and timely for a moment of need. It was a good night at Care Group. Better than ever.
We'll see where this journey takes me.