fancy meeting you here.
back in msip again, adn back into that bad mood agian. frig. this is horrible to say, but i just realsied today that some of even my good friends annoy the hell out of me. like i just cant take it...but then i figured its only the ones who are never sad, becase they dont care about things. for example, i hate the poeple who obsessively ask you whats wrong and try to fix it and they try to make you smile, or worse just say, "SMILE! Come on! why not?!!, if its nothing then smile!!" see, this is the thing, i wouldnt mind it if adrienne did all that, i dont care, because shes a real person,and my best friend at that.. but those who are never sad or stressed or depressed have no idea so why can they help me? and then its annoying. how do the things that bother me so much not effect those people? it kills me..and not in the good Jimmy Eat World way. they can just cruise through life completely unaffected by things, and keep being happy and pleased with their lives...i care too much. i care about love, friends, homework, weekends, music, dirty people, perky people, etc...all too much, whether it be the kind of care thats good, or that kind of care that just makes it affect me incredibly..sometimes bad sometimes good...oh shit, i forgot i added this dallas green sad song to this cd. fuck why must i type what i think instead of what i want to say? im going to go stare at the chalkboard.
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