Finding Myself...Day By Day

[neo_rufus]

It is about time I've gotten use to hanging out with my friends allot, and staying on top of my college work at the same time. Most students either spend more time with friends then work, and vice versa. I use to be the kind who almost ignored them, and focused solely on work. But that was clearly making me unhappy. So yeah that’s why I haven't been updating daily like before, it is because I am finally taking control of my life. Learning how to cook various dishes, studying for my road test, (still I know!!) making even more friends, hanging out with friends, studying at the right times, practicing in Super Smash Brothers Melee, and getting promoted at work! Oh and get this, I found out why my allergies are so bad at the moment. Apparently when those with allergies are stressed, it express via a reaction. So my doctor says I have to find a better way to channel my anger/negative emotions. But how do I do that? I mean I'm not the kind of guy who gets "furious" and smashes things up, it’ll take allot to make me do that, like if somebody threatened a family member or close friend. Sure I say "what the hell" but I don't really curse all that much. But maybe I repress too much, and I end up hurting myself in the process. I'm not saying I am going to start cursing, lol. I've just got to come up with a way to channel my emotions a bit better.

For the first time...in a very long time...I'm not even bothered with the idea of still being single. I'm tired of doubting myself. It is not necessary at all. I know I'm the kind of guy lots of girls would want, the respect, the looks, the attitude, the jokes, the money, and most of all...my love. So I have lots to offer; now it is just a matter of finding the right girl to share it with. But guess what? I am no longer going to beat myself up just because the day I find her isn't today, or the day after that!

Yeah...I think I'm going to like the new me!