Giving Up So Soon?
I feel so wide and awake after that long shower I just had. My allergies were acting up again, I have a hunch it's the weather. I just noticed two things that I find very weird about myself. One, despite the hot summer weather, I still find myself taking pretty warm showers. Warm enough to faintly fog up my bathroom mirror. Not to mention this really isn't the best thing for my sensitive skin. And finally, for some odd reason I can't fall asleep while lying on my back. No matter how hard I try, I lay there on my back for a while, and I won't fall asleep. In the end, I always end up sleeping on my side or my stomach. I'm sorry, but I think it's very weird that I can only sleep on my stomach or on my side, lol.
Now let me get into the main point of this entry. I was just informed that one of my good friends, Kieran, is dropping out of Bermuda College. *sighs* I know it may not sound like a big deal, but it is. He was trying to be a cop, so he joined this police cadet program. The program he was in required a person to maintain a GPA of 2.0, and his dropped pretty bad, thus the reason why he was kicked out. But he could have returned to College and got his GPA up...but he gave up all together. I'll never understand why some people who are so gifted, has all the potential in the world just give up when they are on the road to making there dreams come true. I don't feel as though I have the right to be angry at him, because it's his life...his decision. So how should I feel? If not mad, then disappointed? I just don't know anymore. One thing is for sure...I’m never quitting, even if I'm the only one left...I won't give up. There is just no way!
However, I did come very close to giving up my dreams, for somebody else. His name is Melvin, and he is one of my closest friends. His goal is to become a sailor. He is currently sailing around the world on the Bermuda Sloop, and he won't be back for a few months. I really miss him. You see he gave me the option of coming along with him. But going with him meant giving my goal to become a veterinarian. Don't get me wrong, being a sailor would have been great! I love the ocean, adventures...and teamwork. In fact, if I would have went...I would have been in the same place as most of my LJ friends.
My parents didn't mind, I was good to go. But in the end, I couldn't go. Hanging out with Melvin would have been an awesome treat. He's real good to the ladies, funny, sensitive, respectful...all of that good stuff. I use to love how we'd debate about whose better looking between us two. We tried to get a female judge to decide, but she labeled us both as "smexy," but I digress. I'm going to miss him...but we'll meet again. But I had to stop lying to myself. I guess I also wanted to go because maybe going on this journey would have helped be find the girl of my dreams, but I guess I'll just have to put that plan on hold...again. In the mean time...I'll keep trying to become the veterinarian I feel I'm destined to be. :)
Good night.
Now let me get into the main point of this entry. I was just informed that one of my good friends, Kieran, is dropping out of Bermuda College. *sighs* I know it may not sound like a big deal, but it is. He was trying to be a cop, so he joined this police cadet program. The program he was in required a person to maintain a GPA of 2.0, and his dropped pretty bad, thus the reason why he was kicked out. But he could have returned to College and got his GPA up...but he gave up all together. I'll never understand why some people who are so gifted, has all the potential in the world just give up when they are on the road to making there dreams come true. I don't feel as though I have the right to be angry at him, because it's his life...his decision. So how should I feel? If not mad, then disappointed? I just don't know anymore. One thing is for sure...I’m never quitting, even if I'm the only one left...I won't give up. There is just no way!
However, I did come very close to giving up my dreams, for somebody else. His name is Melvin, and he is one of my closest friends. His goal is to become a sailor. He is currently sailing around the world on the Bermuda Sloop, and he won't be back for a few months. I really miss him. You see he gave me the option of coming along with him. But going with him meant giving my goal to become a veterinarian. Don't get me wrong, being a sailor would have been great! I love the ocean, adventures...and teamwork. In fact, if I would have went...I would have been in the same place as most of my LJ friends.
My parents didn't mind, I was good to go. But in the end, I couldn't go. Hanging out with Melvin would have been an awesome treat. He's real good to the ladies, funny, sensitive, respectful...all of that good stuff. I use to love how we'd debate about whose better looking between us two. We tried to get a female judge to decide, but she labeled us both as "smexy," but I digress. I'm going to miss him...but we'll meet again. But I had to stop lying to myself. I guess I also wanted to go because maybe going on this journey would have helped be find the girl of my dreams, but I guess I'll just have to put that plan on hold...again. In the mean time...I'll keep trying to become the veterinarian I feel I'm destined to be. :)
Good night.